NEVER UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES PAUSE A DISNEY MOVIE

AT LEAST I KNOW ONE THING

There is not so much things I'm sure about in my life right now (not that I usually am) but I'm sure about one thing; I want to stay in Scotland. In some kind of way. Maybe not as an Au Pair (allthough I have the perfect family to stay longer with) but somehow I will figure it out. 

I'm actually in the position of wanting to know what I want to study at uni so I could live in Edinburgh and study. Everyone that knows me, know that I'm a bit against going back to school (don't see the reason to rush it) but right now I'm a bit frustrated with myself to why I can't figure it out. It shouldn't be that hard right?

If that doesn't tell you how much I want to stay here then I don't know what will. 

I haven't been homesick even once since I got here. And it has been over two months since I came here. Compared to last time this is a total victory! 

Yes, mum and dad I am planning to come home for a few days this summer, no worries. 

I just wanted to put this out there, 'cause even if yesterday and today has not been all roses and fluffy clouds I still want to stay. That sure tells me something. 

I have found myself a good place! 

AND I LOVE THE MOVIES

IT SORT OF GOT OUT OF HAND A BIT...

Just to let you know I haven't payed more than £30 for them in total. And two of them I brought from Sweden. And yes, I'm not allowed to buy any more books until I've read all of them. With no exception. So not even Giovanna Fletchers new book coming out soon and Carrie Hope Fletchers new book OR the Harry Potter books if I find them for a good price. It's going to be hard. So I better start reading! 

THE SAME BUT DIFFERENT

DON'T CALL IT A DREAM

CALL IT A PLAN

I have started to call a few of my dreams plans instead and I can't quite tell you what has changed, but something has. I fell more determined to go through with it.
Something else that's been on my mind is that you are able to go through with whatever you put your mind up to - very few things that you're not able to do; like turn into an asian person if you're a european. My point is that as long as you're determined nothing can stop you except you. You have all this energy given to you and if you take all that energy to go for your goal nothing and no-one can stop you except YOU! You can stop yourself from fulfill your own goals/plans/dreams. 
As long as you have your eyes on the goal and you're prepared to take different paths to get there (there is not only one way to get where you eant) you will manage. Because only can stop yourself and you know yourself so you can stop yourself from stoping. That maybe didn't make any sense, but if you understand what I mean, that's great. 

BLOWN AWAY BY TIME

It's been a while since I actually wrote something here.

This week has gone by so, so, so fast. I remember waking up on wensday being completely blown away that then ext day was my "friday". The time is just passing by so quickly and in a few days I will have been here two months already! Unbelievable!

I'm having a really good time here. I have made a few friends, no one really close or no one that I see every other day. But I'm fine with that. I honestly don't mind. I already have my close friends and au pair friends. I'm no need of new ones. Don't get me wrong, I'm always happy getting new friends and get to know more people. But I'm also happy as it is now.

We also went biking in the afternoon - in the graveyard. Let me just say that I wouldn't allow it if it would have been dark. Not because I don't think they would be fine but because I would be freaking out and run off.

On thursday (my friday) I only had the girl the whole afternoon. Which was very nice since I didn't have to get out through the door the third time that day. I go out through the door at least three times on a regular day. 

Friday I'd decided to have a day of doing nothing. I woke up and put on 'Harry Potter And The Half Blood Prince' and then went on two 'Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows part 1/2'. So that was my whole day and then in the evening I watched a bit of Comic Relief on BBC One. One of the first things they showed was Rowan Atkinson resurrecting Mr Bean. So incredibly funny! (Mum, you know our beloved guy from 'Death In Paradise' (Morden I Paradiset)? He in the sketch!)

Saturday was a day of not really doing anything as well. With other words a lovely day. Did skype with one of my sisters (the youngest one was just running in and out of the picture all the time).

Today I went to the church and had a great walk there and back home. Met some new friendly people and in the afternoon I headed out for another walk. Whitch did not turn out as I had expected.
So I had planned to walk in a circle - about an hour in total. I had walked half of it when I came to a gate. You can walk through gates here, no problemos, but there was an issue. Hundreds and hundreds of sheep were walking into the field on the other side, so they crossed the road. I definitely freaked them out 'cause they started running past me as far away as possible. Looked pretty funny. I thought that I could wait them out. I was in no rush. But after about 10 minutes and I still saw as many sheep as when I first got there I took a few steps to the side and saw even more sheep coming. In that moment I decided that it was not worth the wait and just turned back instead. It was a pretty walk though.

These are some other sheep, not the ones I was waiting for to cross the road.

MY FIRST REAL SPONTANEOUS THING 2015

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EAT, PRAY, LOVE - 3

"To travel is worth any cost or sacrifice."

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"To lose balance sometimes for love is part of living a blanaced life."