MY NERVES - 24 DAYS LEFT

I think I might be on my way to what could be explained as a nervous break down. Maybe not a nervous break down, that is a bit exaggerating. But I never liked the feeling when all you can do is sit and wait, twiddle your thumbs and just W A I T not beeing able to do a thing. 

But over to better things. I got asked by Sofia (my Chicago girl) if I would like to go with her and see One Direction in Gothenburg in July. My answer was ofc yes! I did tell her though that I'm might not be in the country but if I'm not it probably wont be to hard to find another person to go with. So I'm actually going to see them again and this time they will performe their new album, four. Which is really good, so take a listen!
Will have seen them with two of my favorite US girls. Like that! 

Just 'cause I love dogs and they really are humans best friend!

A HINT - 26 DAYS LEFT

So it's been a few days since last time. A few things have happend. I complained around a week ago about when you don't know what you want to do and don't really have any plans. So let me tell you, I got pretty confused when I went from having nothing planned at all to have five different options in less then two weeks. The different thing her has been that every option has contained traveling. How am I then supposed to be able to decide?

I don't have time to write more but when I know more about my life I'll let you know what's going on.

 

Btw soon it's Christmas! Yay!

SWEDISH STEREOTYPES

WHAT A GREAT WAKE UP!

Yesterday morning my siblings woke me up giving me their late birthday gift. What a great wake up people. I GOT THE BOOKS THAT I WANTED SO MUCH! Now I have 'You're The One That I Want' and 'Christmas With Billy And Me' in my shelf and o my they look so good there! I started reading YTOTIW yesterday on the bus. I couldn't stay away from it, haha. And today I've had plenty of time to read as well and OMG I'm loving the book! It's so good and I can't wait to see how it ends! I think I might finish it tomorrow. Oupsie.. It's a bit sad if I actually end it tomorrow. 'Cause I do want to enjoy the book for as long as possible, but I'm not sure if I can hold myself from reading it. I'm gonna wait to read CWBM for a while so I can really get into the christmas spirit. Everyone says that you get christmas feelings after reading it, so I'm gonna wait. Hopefully. 

THIS WEEKEND COULDN'T HAVE COME AT A BETTER TIME - 33 DAYS LEFT

Just have to spew a little bile over this day. This day has been.. the hardest since I started working at the school. Everything that can go wrong has gone wrong. Since 8:30-15:20 there has been fights all the time. Like literally all the time! I've had in total around 40 minutes of peace (30 min was on my break).. So almost seven hours of constant fighting!! (Had great co-workers that helped me!) Can't describe how tired and exhausted I am! Feels like I could sleep the whole weekend without any problem. I can fall asleep now and it's not even seven yet, but still have to stay up for at least two more hours. Probably going to watch Tangled with the youngest in my bed. Yes, I'm already lying here, have been since half an hour ago and I've no intention to move!

DO THINGS THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY

The pressure in todays society when it comes to know what you want to do with your life I think makes it harder for people to actually know what they want to do. I can't really melt how true that is for me.
I'm getting so confused with myself  'cause I really don't mind not knowing what I want to do and just be, living life, do what I feel like. But at the same time this tension is building up inside of me from everyone EXPECTING you to study and know what to do with your life and definentily NOT Se. I know I shouldn't let it get to me, honestly I don't care what people think, I don't, but everything around me is always about the future and what to do, etc. It's hard, more like impossible, to not let it get to you. You can get tired of pushing it away. A few days ago I reached my limit. In just a few days it will probably be over again, but I just need to get this out of my system.

We live to much in the future, I'm one of them, so we stop enjoying the moment. When living in the future you end up forgetting about everyone around you and how good your life actually is. Or when you start wishing on how you WISH your life should have been or you should have been, that's when you also start forgetting living the life you have right now! You start loosing so many moments and memories that you will never get back, no matter how much you try. So start living life now and not in the future!
Enjoy the time being single, or in a relationship. Enjoy school if you're there or having a morning to sleep in. Maybe you have a crush? Take the step to start talking to the person, ask him/her out. The worst thing that can actually happen is that the person says no and then you know so you can start moving on. Enjoy the cup of tea, the good book you're reading, you're friends wanting to hang out with you, to actually be able to have fifty eleven choices where you want to live, study, work.

You DO NOT have to know today or tomorrow. If you know now, that's great! If you end up beeing 42 when you now, that's great as well! You can do so many other things till then. Things you would never do otherwise. If you're not happy do something else 'cause it's not healthy beeing unhappy.  Just take life as it comes and do what makes you happy.

For example. I'm happy when I drink tea, read a good book, are with family and friends, listen to music, play music, had a productive day so I'm exhausted when I go to bed, when I get to travel close or far away, get texts from my friends that I don't talk to so often, a good nights sleep, my soft animal (had him since I was 6?), food, and so on. There's always something to be happy about. Don't forget to smile guys!

THINGS TO KNOW ABOUT ME AND MY TEA - 36 DAYS LEFT

Firstly. I don't drink when it's to hot. I enjoy the time when I have to wait for it to become perfect. If I'm in need of drinking it straight away I don't boil it to long or I put only 2/3 of the hot water in my cup and fill the rest 1/3 with cold water. That gives me the perfect temperature.

Secondly. I prefer the loose tea, the flavors that appear are heavenly!The bags are fine but not the best kind.

Thirdly. I love the tea that contains flowers, erbs, fruit and berrys.

Fourthly. I don't drink red tea (like Rooibos or Strawberry) or Lipton Lemon (I'm not so fond at all about Lipton but the blackberry works).

Fifthly. Tea makes me relax in the body and I tend to stress down. Whitch is awesome!

Sixtly. The best time to drink tea is.. always. But I enjoy it most if I'm with my friends, a rainy day, had a hard day at work, in the middle of the night, reading a good book, sitting outside, if i'm cold, sick, etc.

Seventhly. I seem to rather often forget my tea for a while when I'm letting it cool down, usually only happens when I'm by myself, so I have to drink it quite cold.

Eightly. I never let the bag/tea ball be in the cup for more than 2 minutes. It's more around 30 seconds to 1 minute. Don't like it to strong.

I probably have a few more things, but I don't seem to remember them right now.

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Kids. We should all be like kids.

IT'S GROWING - 39 DAYS LEFT

When I was away this week and we were on our way back home from Stockholm we stoped by Söderköping (I've never been there but o my it's was so cozy! Will it surprise you if I say that we went into second hand stores? Didn't think so. I ended up buying a few books and one of them was in english! Yay! I don't know if I have said this before but I like reading books in english and prefer to have the books in english. Except, ofc, if the author is from Sweden. Then it's better in swedish. So I found a few from Camilla Läckberg. She's a swedish author who writes really good criminal books. I've read a few and came across three books for the price of 10 kr. That's so cheap! Love it!
The book in english is called Commencement and writen by J. Courtney Sullivan. I was actually looking for books not so long ago and saw this one. I decided not to put it on my "Book List" (yes I do have a list of books that I want and it's HUGE, might share it some day) 'cause I... I don't know. However I didn't and now I found it in a second hand store for only 5 kr! Man, that feels nice!

No, I don't have the candle their usually. Don't want my books to burn up. Not the house either btw. I just thought it looked good for the picture. Wow, Sofie you're such a photographer..

Found in a bag (it feels like I'm finding a lot of stuff now a days.. oupsiee) this book "Nu Är Det Jul Igen" and I got so nostalgic 'cause I read it a lot when I was a kid. Fitted perfect next to my advent candlestick! Christmas spirit here I come!

A while ago I said that I will put in the title how many days it was left for Christmas, on every post. As you noticed, I ended up forgetting it. Will do my best to remember it from now on. It's actually just a little bit over a month left! LOVE IT!

SOFIA WATCH THIS!

SHAKESPEARE

My bounty is as boundless as the sea,

My love as deep; the more I give to thee,

The more I have, for both are infinite.

ED SHEERAN

After been waiting for almost half a year the day is arriving. How can this be? I will tomorrow leave my friends house (I'm going there tonight with my sister) and drive up to Stockholm too, finally, see Ed Sheeran! It's so unreal to me and I can't believe it. I don't think I will understand that I've seen him until after the concert. But that's fine, as long as everything goes well. It will not go as planned, 'cause it never does, but just go well. I've been waiting for this day so long. I missed him in Baltimore, 'cause I was working. So when I found out that he was  coming to Stockholm I got ridiculously happy.

Then I got a bit mad, how was I supposed to know what I was going to do during that time? I didn't have a clue what I was going to do with my time after Baltimore. It got even worse when my sister got tickets and I didn't. To be honest, I thought it was pretty unfair. But a few weeks later I ended up with tickets and have been so, so, so excited about it since then. I'M ACTUALLY GOING TO SEE HIM!! Woooooooow...

I totally love his songs and his latest album X (multiply) is so good. It's just amazing. I love that he has a lot of different genres, acoustic, alternative/indie, pop, rap. He's just a mixture of everything! How great isn't that? 

It's also really cool how he build up the songs. Watch this clip and you'll see what I talk about.
If you don't wanna watch the whole clip, watch from 0:42.

Okay, I won't botter you with more of this right now. I'll do it in a few days when I get home but for now I'm done. 

CHRISTMAS WORKSHOP DAY - 45 DAYS TO GO!

I will now start puting how many days it's left for Christmas on every post I make. Just so you can remember it and not forget about Christmas!

O what a day! It's been such a lovely day today. Went to the church  with my family today and then when we came home we started our planned Christmas Workshop day. We were sitting in the living room for 5-6 hours with one dinner break. It was so fun! We didn't really do that much but it doesn't matter, what matter is that we had a great time.
Dad joined in as well for a while, then he cooked dinner for us. It was delicious! He had cooked a whole chicken but I sadly couldn't eat from it. (I'm a vegetarian if you remember.) But my dad's so sweet so had made me lentils instead. Which were really good, so I put some in my lunchbox for tomorrow. 

When I was looking for candles before I found this poster, that you can see below. (That's one of many from my mum. They're old and SO beautiful!) So I just had to put it up and now that Hallowen I'm more "allowed" to put it up. 100% sure my mum would disagree but hey, she's not home and she doesn't have a say in it, hehe. 

I made a garland today, as you can see. I'm not sure if you can see what it is. I know what it is since I made it. But as you can see in the picture below is that it's christmas trees. Yay, for christmas! And on the bottom of every part it says "Merry Christmas" in swedish. 

The Hobbit: The Battle of the Five Armies

I LITERALLY can't wait for the last Hobbit to come out! I'm a HUGE fan of both Lord Of The Rings and The Hobbit!
The books are great, not the best ones I've read I admit, but they're still so enchanting that it keeps you going on and makes you go through the more dull parts as well. And in the end it's so worth it! But this is just the LOTR books not The Hobbit. That book is not as dry. It's an easier language so it's easier to read and it's funny. Not in like a comdy kind of way, but still funny. I really recommend you to read The Hobbit. If you really like LOTR you should read thoose books too. You will understand so much more and get a lot of things described for you. 

The movies, OMG, don't even get me started. Peter Jackson succeeds time after time! And I'm 110% certain that he won't fail me this time either! The movies are absolutely splendid! Ofc, they're not completely after the books, but what movie is? Does it makes the movie less good? NO FREAKING WAY!!
Then we have Howard Shore (he did the music in the movies). (I'm a person who cannot watch a movie without listening to the music as well, it defines if the movie is good or not. Good music = I'll like it more. Bad music = The movie will fall in my eyes.) So Howard Shore is a complete GENIOUS(!!!!!) and should be given tons of rewards for his magnificent compositions. Without him the movies would not gone far. And I'm beeing completely honest. 

The actors are great as well and I can't think about anyone else suited for the rolls better than the ones that are acting. Aragorn, Gandalf, Frodo, Sam, Pippin, Merry, Legolas, Gimli, Gollum, Rosie, the Orcs, etc. Such a perfect cast!

OMG, EVERYTHING IS JUST COMPLETELY BRILLIANT!

THIS COULD BE ME

Sorry, but it's in swedish and their is not english subtitles, so you all can understand.. But I'll sum it up for you guys. 

He gets mad when he can't fit the cookie in the glas of milk and starts overreacting. What the other boy is trying to explain is that he can split it in two, but not really succeeding. I think you'll figure out the rest by yourself, the body language is not to hard to read.
Haha, this could so be me! 

WELL PUT

Here we go.

I came across Carrie Hope Fletchers blog today, didn't know she had one. I've been watching her videos on youtube - ItsWayPastMyBedTime - for a while. You guys should check her out. I'm always in the run for new books to read and she suggest some really good ones!
But however, what I wanted to come to is that I read her latest post and I just wanted you guys to read it to, 'cause it touches something (for me) very important.
So many people are occupied about how everyone else see them and how they see themselves and forget to be happy and live their lives. It's not a bad thing, everyone strives to be liked in some way or another. So read this, you may not agree, but that's fine.

You ARE A Soul

“You don’t have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.” - C.S. Lewis

I read this quote earlier this week and I had to sit back for a little while, in the chair of my dressing room, looking at it on the screen. “Celinde” I said in disbelief and nudged Celinde Schoenmaker, Les Mis’ current Fantine who I have the pleasure of sharing a dressing room with and sit directly next to, to get her attention and then gestured towards the screen. She made a noise of approval and also sat with me for a moment in pondering silence. 

We, human beings, constantly talk about finding soulmates, soul searching and doing what makes our soul happy but then we also harp on about calories, how many pounds we’ve shed or gained, how frizzy our hair is, how much our nail beds suck… There’s absolutely NOTHIING wrong with wanting to look your best. I did my make-up before leaving the house this morning. As I do every morning. I colour co-ordinated my outfit too. I want more tattoos. Having an opinion on how you look and wanting to change things about your appearance isn’t a bad thing. It becomes a bad thing when it consumes our lives and we forget about our souls. Our body is just the casing. It’s the wrapper on the chocolate bar. It’s paper on the birthday presents. It’s the bit that we coat in make-up, tattoos, pretty clothes, jewellery and hairspray to make ourselves feel more at home in our own skin. But what’s the point in decorating a house if no one lives there? What’s the point in an exciting wrapper if the chocolate bar tastes like crap? Why wrap up a present in ribbons and paper if there’s nothing in the box? It’s our soul that is the most important thing. If our souls aren’t happy then it doesn’t matter how great our shells look. If we aren’t happy, that unhappiness will seep through that shell no matter how much we try to hide it. On the flip side, if we don’t think our bodies look the best, our happy soul will shine through that shell regardless and you’ll glow far brighter than the people who have glammed up their shells to the max but whose souls lay forgotten, shrivelled and dying on the inside. 

You ARE a soul. You HAVE a body. Do with your body what you wish. It’s your body after all and it’s hugely important but it’s home to your soul. You don’t decorate the fish bowl with plants, models of castles and treasure chests and pebbles and let the fish die, do you? So decorate as much as you wish but make sure you feed the fish! 

xxx

Here is her blog alliknownow.

MY LONG TIME OFF WORK

Long time no see.

Me, Caroline, Matilda and Paulina

A few things have happend since last time. 

Tuesday evening I went to see my High School friend Petra. She came and picked me up at work with two other girls that I also went to High School with. It was so lovely to see them again! Haven't seen Paulina since graduation and Caroline I have only met once since graduation. Another of Petras friend showed up to, and she was great. So I had a lovely time and we were up half of the night and waked up early. So with other words almost no sleep, but so worth it. I went home and my long time off work started (five full days!). Allthough to be more precise it started tuesday evening. 

On thursday I went to Väla, which is a huge shoppingmall with my friend. I had a huge list with stuff to buy and I just kept making it smaller and smaller and changed a few things, 'cause I didn't feel like buying all of it, haha. Good job Sofie.. But I'm very pleased with the things I bought. I think I'm most pleased with the dress, that I'm very comfortable in(!), and the perfumes. And I bought both at the store Zara, love that store.

On friday I went to take a fika with my mum and youngest sister. We ending up playing Trouble, and it was so much fun! In the afternoon we started carving in our last good pumpkin from mums garden. It turned out really well!

After that it was time for me to start getting ready for the surprise night for Caroline (not the same as in the beginning of this text). I took the train up to Kungsbacka and we went bowling and then out to eat. The food was D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-S and it was no problem to get vegetarian food. 

Slept over at Carolines and went to see another friend during the day, haven't met him in over a year, so that was really fun! Then it was time to take the train down to Lund to my brother and my family that was visiting him. I met a friend on the train and one of her friends so I had company all the way down, which was really fun. 

When arriving in Lund it was time for me to go bowling again, with my family this time. Had so much fun. Let me just tell you that I'm no good at bowling, at all. I sometimes can get a bit of luck, but I have no idea how I do it. Haha! And then afterwards we went out to eat and ended up in a chinese restauant.

And now it's sunday and I have just finished writing my CV and personal letter! (Okay not completely done yet, but almost.) It only took me 2 ½ year to finish it.. Omg, can't believe it actually has taken me that long to finsih it! But well, well, now it's done. 

Need to start looking for a new job before spring. My substitut employment is over at christmas, but I will probably have a few days in the beginning of january. 

My last words will be, I really like beeing a vegetarian!