IN THE CAR UP - HIGHLAND TRIP

GRATEFUL

The last two days I've been looking through and clearing out pictures on my computer - I'm so amazed that it's still alive.. my computer I mean - and so many feelings have passed through me. Happiness, sadness, longing, content, laughs, weirdness, gratefullness. You name it and I have probably felt it. I'm so, so greatful to have been able to do all the things that I've done in a very short time in my life, no matter what the after affecte have been and how poor I have been. Ofc there is things that if I would relive it again I would do different, a bit more money would have helped sometimes, but at the same time it has thought me a thing or two about money. 

As my mum said the other day when we were talking about my uni plans in the spring: "It's really good to put away just a little bit of money all the time. But you really know how to live life." My respons? "Eeh, thanks mum. I'm not sure what you're implying but I'll take it as a compliment." Haha! 

I'm really happy and content with what I've learnt and achieved in my life. Who would have thought that 2 1/2 years after my graduation I would have lived in not ONE but TWO countries, Sweden not included. Not me! Three years ago I would have been happy with just one. And if I have any say in my life in the future, there will be more!

I'm really looking forward to the winter, Christmas and snow! The first time we got snow when I lived in Baltimore I went NUTS. Me and Sofia we had just had the previous night/day a H.P marathon! We were acting americans and ordered pizza to the door even though the pizzeria was only 5 minutes away, haha. And what did we see in the morning?? SNOW!! We decided to walk to the local shop and buy something so we could walk in the snow with a purpose. Haha, as if you actually need a purpose for that. In the evening Clau and Anni came over and we watched a movie and ordered some more food. Absolutely brilliant!

EVERY DAY IS A GOOD DAY

It's quite amazing how every day passes without us really noticing it. And we always put the days in categories as well; good day, bad day, productive day, lazy day, rainy day, weird day and so on. But here's a thought; isn't every day exactly the same as the other just different things put into it? Like this; the sun goes up, we go up, the sun moves across the sky - well the world moves and the sun is in the exact same spot all the time, sun goes down and we go to sleep. And this happens every day. Then what happens during the day that's when we start putting the day into on of our categories. Sometimes the day even falls into two, maybe three, categories. What I wanted to come to - the work to get there wasn't as good as in my brain so I'm just going to jump there - was that every day is actually a good day. Then it's just worldly things that comes in our way that can make it a bad/good/weird/hilarious day. This probably doesn't makes sense at all to you guys, but my brain has always been a bit all over. 

Haha, sorry, I just decided to write down the first thing that popped into my head and this was it. Not the most genius thing, but it's nice to think that every day is a good day! 

Yesterday feel under the categorie of a good day. Went on a bikeride with this sweetheart. In the graveyard... As I've said before, I'm only there when it's not dark.

TIME. IT'S A FUNNY THING.

Wow, so much has happened since I came back from my vacation in Sweden.. I've been busy here and there, and off here and there, and for the love of my life I can not remember all the things I've been up too!

1. I've had my parents over for a visit. We drove up to the Highlands and got a proper scottish experience. Did Edinburgh as well ofc. Was a blast!!

2. Anna has been down on two courses in England so me and Iain have been working extra to cover it up. Only one more course to go, yay. The first time she was down I got a nasty cold and ended up being really sick and bound to bed any time I could. The second time, this past week, everything, and I mean everything, has run really smoothly. Great week with the kids. A lot of making leaf piles, jumping around in the leaves and having leaf war. Absolutely HILARIOUS! I'm 100% serious.

3. I've been pre-celebrating Christmas, as I do every year. A new Christmas playlist is starting to take form, my ginger thins are almost eaten up and just six bottles of Julmust left. Next time Anna is close to IKEA she has promised to buy me another packet of Julmust. And it is less than 2 months to go until Christmas!!! Crazy how time flies..

4. My friend Johanna came over for a few days when the kids were off on October break. Anna parents were over so I got all week off and only worked on the thursday, when they left. So had good fun with my friend. It was a bit out of the blue. A week before the break I texted her and asked and she said yes. Spontaneous trips are so fun!

5. I've done the hard decision to go back to Sweden by Christmas. They did tell me: We are going to do everything in our power and bribe you so much so you don't go and stay here till the summer. And they did bribe me. It was really hard to decide. I spend hours and hours thinking about what to do. In the end it was just a matter of what I wanted just a slightly bit more than the other. But they have told me that if I change my mind they're more than happy to let me stay. I can change my mind up to a week before I go, haha. They're so brilliant!

6. About going back. My ticket has been booked. 21st of December. The date I'm terrified of and fear but am really excited about at the same time. Oh, the weirdness of the mind.

7. I'm more and more amazed and freaked out about time. It's a funny thing. Sometime the time goes way to slow, especially when you are a kid or doing something boring, and at some points it literally just flies away! How is that possible?? It's a good thing, though. But it still makes my brain dizzy when I think about it to much. For example this year has been the fastest and bestest (I know it's not a real word but nevermind) ever in my life. I can not remember a year going as quick as this one! Not any of my High School years or the two years that has been since graduation has passed quicker. It's mind blowing how fast this year has passed and how fast the next two months are going to dissapear. I could never have imagined in the beginning of this year to fall so completely in love with Scotland and the family.

8. I'm already planning a trip back to Scotland. At first I was thinking about a long weekend. But seriously, that is not enough. I need at least a week!

9. I'm going to miss Scotland.

AUTUMN IS FINALLY HERE

I'M COMING HOME

It is now decided that I will go home during Christmas and not come back afterwards. I will ofc come back but just to visit. It was a hard decision to make. I love Scotland and the family is amazing but at the same time I want to live in Lund with my brother, cousins and friends and study a wee course at uni. So after a lot(!) of thinking I've finally decided that it's Sweden for me in the spring. It is a bitter decision. I have a wee Scot inside of me! And I don't mean a baby, haha. Quite a few people has mentioned it to me, that I actually am a half Scot. For example; I LOVE rugby, don't mind rain at all and -it might not have anything to do with it really - but my favorite English accent is Scottish! There are other factors to it as well, how I act to things and think, but just to mention a few.

It will be lots and lots of tears when I go and a part of me will be left here. I will really miss Scotland!!

THE HIGHLANDS

IKEA & JULMUST

This Sunday I went to IKEA with anna and the kids. It was great to feel a bit Swedish again. What I've not realized is that it's less than 2 months till December which means that it's only 2 1/2 moths till CHRISTMAS!  I only first realized this when I came to the very end in the store where they had Christmas stuff everywhere!  I felt so Christmasy when I bought 21 bottles of JULMUST (it has to last till Christmas and I realized first when I came home that I should maybe have bought another package of 18 bottles..). It's a Swedish Christmas soda and it's sooo good! I also bought ginger thins and candles. They were supposed to smell like "winter", they didn't, but the glass holder was so nice so I bought them anyway, haha. Just to put it out there, they were cheap.