MY NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS

Got the idea from Carrie Hope Fletcher. She read this year 22 books, because that was how old she would become this year. I liked that idea so I'm going to have that for next year. 

So I have a few resolutions during 2015: 

• Read at least 21 books 
• Have fun
• See Anni
• Buy books

I think I'll manage thoose without any problem. It always feel better when you can manage to keep the resolution when they actually are things that are sustainable over a year and are fun. Not on the "I Have To Do List". Something that will make you feel good and not bad over. For me it has always become something of bad joke. So last year I had none but ended up deciding to have this year and ONLY fun things. And things that are not hard for me to keep. 

I'm not sure how many books I've read during this year, but I have a few books that I want to read during 2015.

• The Book Thief - Markus Zusak
• All I Know Now: Wonderings and Reflections On Growing Up Gracefully - Carrie Hope Fletcher
• Looking For Alaska - John Green
• One Million Lovely Letters - Jodi Ann Bickley
• Dead Silence - Kimberly Derting
• The Last Echo - Kimberly Derting
• Desires Of The Dead - Kimberly Derting
• Me Before You - Jojo Moyes
• Dream A Little Dream - Giovanna Fletcher (!!!!)

Giovanna Fletcher is gonna release a new book! That's AMAZING! The 18th of June I will be able to buy it!! I'm quite sure I'll pre order it. Okay I'm 100% sure I'll pre order it. Can't wait to have it in my G.F collection! 

MY "AU PAIR" FRIENDS

I probably wont find any "Au Pair" friends when I go to Selkirk. Because there is only around 6000 people living there. But I'm not sure I want to find any new ones. I'm more than pleased with my current "Au Pair" friends and I know I can always talk to them if I need to talk about kids and other stuff that always come up when beeing an Au Pair.
But I need some friends there to survive, otherwise I will be on my way home 'cause I can't live without friends for long. So it's good that I'm a social person. Makes finding friends there not to hard hopefully.

I booked my flight ticket on Christmas Eve. So know it's only the packing, bank and a few other stuff left. But all the major things are done!

I skyped with Anni tonigt. I miss that girl so incredible much. She is such a good person and always makes me smile. Whenever we have talked I always have a smile on my face.
I also met up with my friend Petra today, she is the same. Always happy after I've meet her.
I really have so good persons in my life.

No red thread as usuall in my text. But my thoughts never have a read tread so it's no surprise.

SCOTLAND - 4 DAYS LEFT!

4 DAYS LEFT TO CHRISTMAS!! How amazing is that?! The time really has passed by with in 120 km/h. I love it. But now it can slow down a little bit so we can really enjoy christmas to it fullest! I'm gonna work two more days and then I'm free for 6 days and then I have one more day to work and then I'm done! Then I'm free till the 7th of january 2015. 

I'm gonna work at the school for 2½ weeks after new years and then, people, I'm gonna move to Scotland. I'm moving to Scotland to take care of two kids.

I never thought I would be an au pair again but long story short I am. I know I wrote about Huntingdon earlier and that's still going to happen. So I'm basically gonna be gone for about 1½ year. But ofc I'm gonna come home at least once. I'm hoping twice, once in the summer and once during Christmas. 

So I'm basically going to pack my stuff again in less than a month and move for the 9th(?) time in my life. I'm ofc gonna pack my tea and my cozy sweaters. Don't wanna live without them. 

I can tell you all now that this is not gonna turn into an 'au pair blog'. I'm gonna keep wiriting whatever I feel like and it might be about the kids but it's probably mainly gonna be about..? Well, I don't even know if we can put a topic to what I'm writing about now. So, it's gonna be about whatever that comes to my mind. 

Our beautiful Christmas Tree! 

SHOOTING STARS - 10 DAYS LEFT

In my whole life I've only seen two shooting stars. Two. Everyone else have seen countless of them and don't really think it's a big deal. But it is, at least for me. Shooting stars are darn cool!
So yesterday night there was supposed to be a lot of shooting stars until midnight. Me and one of my sisters took some blankets and layed down on the grass and looked up in the sky while eating fudge. Wow, the sky was just amazing and I felt so tiny while looking up. But it was so cool!

I ended up seeing 7 shooting stars! SEVEN! THAT was cool! I saw small ones, big ones, short ones and huge ones. It was so COOL! And I made a wish on every one of them! I've never told anyone about my wishes (even though my first two wishes already have come true) and never will. They will always and forever just be in my mind.

SHOOTING STARS ARE SO COOL!! I wanna learn the dirfferent star pictures. I think that would be really cool to know, while my sister didn't think it was as cool as I did.

I just realized that the word cool has been used maybe to much now. So from now on I will write OLOC instead. That's so OLOC! Haha!

This is kind of what it looked like. Pretty oloc right?!

YLVIS - 12 DAYS LEFT

Norwegian comedians that will crack you up! At least I did!
(Is the ones that made 'What Does The Fox Say')

THE FIRST SNOW - 14 DAYS LEFT

CHRISTMAS TREE - 18 DAYS LEFT

Weekend. How wonderful.
After work me and my sister were at my grandparents house and made some dinner, watched Chocolate (in the morning I really wanted to watch some movie with Johnny Depp and I'm on my period and wanted chocolate, so the perfect movie to see) and had some dessert. Was a good evening with a lot of fun! After Chocolate we watched some M*A*S*H. It's a tv-show and if you haven't seen it, you should check it out! It's hilarious! Then something happend with the DVD-player so we started watching The Big Bang Theory. Love Sheldon.

Today we went out to find a Christmas tree to the porch and one for the living room. My youngest sister wants one for her room so we went on a search for a small christmas tree. She was quite funny 'cause she was acting all grown up saying "This one is WAY to tall.", "This one is WAY to big.", "I can't have this one 'cause it's NOT big enough.", and so on. Couldn't help but laugh. She's to funny.

Right now I'm drinking tea and Julmust (swedish christmas soda). It's really good! I'm on my second cup of tea. My tea cup had turned all brown inside so I had to take a paus in my drinking to clean it 'cause it bothered me. I put some boiling hot water in it and then a bit of bicarbonate and left it there for around 20-30 minutes. It just feel of, all the brown stuff. So now it's the color it's supposed to be again. Yay!

I think I might start watching the serie Doctor Who. Been hearing quite a bit about it so I'll give it a try and see if I like it. Allthough following a serie takes a lot of time, Especially if there already is 8 seasons out. But I'll give it a go.

IT'S STARTING TO APPEAR BEFORE ME - 21 DAYS LEFT

My future (that sounds actually so weird to me to say that) is starting to get clear for me. You should read that with a bit of sarcasm. So you know. 

Well, I know now what I'm going to do next autumn at least. I'm off to a place called Huntingdon outside of Cambridge in England. The plan is to work for a family who lives there. I'm not gonna write to much about them here, there's something called privacy guys. But I can tell you that I feelt that we clicked in a lot of ways. Hopefully it will still be there when I go there. It's a few months left, around ten months. That's not a problem for me at all. I actually like it. It gives me time to adjust to it and not just rush into it, as I usually do. So I see this as a huge step for me to actually have plans for next fall. I don't think I've ever had plans this far ahead since, well, ever? 

This day has been really, really good despite my period that started today. I knew it was coming today, been grumpy and a pain in the ass for my family (and me) the last week. I've been relaxing, cleaning the house, taking out the dogs, drinking tea, eating Lindt Sea Salt chocolate, made dinner, went to the grocery store, left a cv at the grocery store, washed some clothes and now I'm sitting in the kitchen listening to music (right now it's Olly Murs, such a good guy - don't know him personally but his music), drikning tea, eating pumpkin seeds, knitting on a scarf to my sister, candles lit everywhere and just waiting for my family to come home. What a good day!

MY LOVE FOR DECEMBER AND HOGWARTS - 22 DAYS LEFT

MY NERVES - 24 DAYS LEFT

I think I might be on my way to what could be explained as a nervous break down. Maybe not a nervous break down, that is a bit exaggerating. But I never liked the feeling when all you can do is sit and wait, twiddle your thumbs and just W A I T not beeing able to do a thing. 

But over to better things. I got asked by Sofia (my Chicago girl) if I would like to go with her and see One Direction in Gothenburg in July. My answer was ofc yes! I did tell her though that I'm might not be in the country but if I'm not it probably wont be to hard to find another person to go with. So I'm actually going to see them again and this time they will performe their new album, four. Which is really good, so take a listen!
Will have seen them with two of my favorite US girls. Like that! 

Just 'cause I love dogs and they really are humans best friend!

A HINT - 26 DAYS LEFT

So it's been a few days since last time. A few things have happend. I complained around a week ago about when you don't know what you want to do and don't really have any plans. So let me tell you, I got pretty confused when I went from having nothing planned at all to have five different options in less then two weeks. The different thing her has been that every option has contained traveling. How am I then supposed to be able to decide?

I don't have time to write more but when I know more about my life I'll let you know what's going on.

 

Btw soon it's Christmas! Yay!

SWEDISH STEREOTYPES

WHAT A GREAT WAKE UP!

Yesterday morning my siblings woke me up giving me their late birthday gift. What a great wake up people. I GOT THE BOOKS THAT I WANTED SO MUCH! Now I have 'You're The One That I Want' and 'Christmas With Billy And Me' in my shelf and o my they look so good there! I started reading YTOTIW yesterday on the bus. I couldn't stay away from it, haha. And today I've had plenty of time to read as well and OMG I'm loving the book! It's so good and I can't wait to see how it ends! I think I might finish it tomorrow. Oupsie.. It's a bit sad if I actually end it tomorrow. 'Cause I do want to enjoy the book for as long as possible, but I'm not sure if I can hold myself from reading it. I'm gonna wait to read CWBM for a while so I can really get into the christmas spirit. Everyone says that you get christmas feelings after reading it, so I'm gonna wait. Hopefully. 

THIS WEEKEND COULDN'T HAVE COME AT A BETTER TIME - 33 DAYS LEFT

Just have to spew a little bile over this day. This day has been.. the hardest since I started working at the school. Everything that can go wrong has gone wrong. Since 8:30-15:20 there has been fights all the time. Like literally all the time! I've had in total around 40 minutes of peace (30 min was on my break).. So almost seven hours of constant fighting!! (Had great co-workers that helped me!) Can't describe how tired and exhausted I am! Feels like I could sleep the whole weekend without any problem. I can fall asleep now and it's not even seven yet, but still have to stay up for at least two more hours. Probably going to watch Tangled with the youngest in my bed. Yes, I'm already lying here, have been since half an hour ago and I've no intention to move!

DO THINGS THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY

The pressure in todays society when it comes to know what you want to do with your life I think makes it harder for people to actually know what they want to do. I can't really melt how true that is for me.
I'm getting so confused with myself  'cause I really don't mind not knowing what I want to do and just be, living life, do what I feel like. But at the same time this tension is building up inside of me from everyone EXPECTING you to study and know what to do with your life and definentily NOT Se. I know I shouldn't let it get to me, honestly I don't care what people think, I don't, but everything around me is always about the future and what to do, etc. It's hard, more like impossible, to not let it get to you. You can get tired of pushing it away. A few days ago I reached my limit. In just a few days it will probably be over again, but I just need to get this out of my system.

We live to much in the future, I'm one of them, so we stop enjoying the moment. When living in the future you end up forgetting about everyone around you and how good your life actually is. Or when you start wishing on how you WISH your life should have been or you should have been, that's when you also start forgetting living the life you have right now! You start loosing so many moments and memories that you will never get back, no matter how much you try. So start living life now and not in the future!
Enjoy the time being single, or in a relationship. Enjoy school if you're there or having a morning to sleep in. Maybe you have a crush? Take the step to start talking to the person, ask him/her out. The worst thing that can actually happen is that the person says no and then you know so you can start moving on. Enjoy the cup of tea, the good book you're reading, you're friends wanting to hang out with you, to actually be able to have fifty eleven choices where you want to live, study, work.

You DO NOT have to know today or tomorrow. If you know now, that's great! If you end up beeing 42 when you now, that's great as well! You can do so many other things till then. Things you would never do otherwise. If you're not happy do something else 'cause it's not healthy beeing unhappy.  Just take life as it comes and do what makes you happy.

For example. I'm happy when I drink tea, read a good book, are with family and friends, listen to music, play music, had a productive day so I'm exhausted when I go to bed, when I get to travel close or far away, get texts from my friends that I don't talk to so often, a good nights sleep, my soft animal (had him since I was 6?), food, and so on. There's always something to be happy about. Don't forget to smile guys!

THINGS TO KNOW ABOUT ME AND MY TEA - 36 DAYS LEFT

Firstly. I don't drink when it's to hot. I enjoy the time when I have to wait for it to become perfect. If I'm in need of drinking it straight away I don't boil it to long or I put only 2/3 of the hot water in my cup and fill the rest 1/3 with cold water. That gives me the perfect temperature.

Secondly. I prefer the loose tea, the flavors that appear are heavenly!The bags are fine but not the best kind.

Thirdly. I love the tea that contains flowers, erbs, fruit and berrys.

Fourthly. I don't drink red tea (like Rooibos or Strawberry) or Lipton Lemon (I'm not so fond at all about Lipton but the blackberry works).

Fifthly. Tea makes me relax in the body and I tend to stress down. Whitch is awesome!

Sixtly. The best time to drink tea is.. always. But I enjoy it most if I'm with my friends, a rainy day, had a hard day at work, in the middle of the night, reading a good book, sitting outside, if i'm cold, sick, etc.

Seventhly. I seem to rather often forget my tea for a while when I'm letting it cool down, usually only happens when I'm by myself, so I have to drink it quite cold.

Eightly. I never let the bag/tea ball be in the cup for more than 2 minutes. It's more around 30 seconds to 1 minute. Don't like it to strong.

I probably have a few more things, but I don't seem to remember them right now.

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Kids. We should all be like kids.

IT'S GROWING - 39 DAYS LEFT

When I was away this week and we were on our way back home from Stockholm we stoped by Söderköping (I've never been there but o my it's was so cozy! Will it surprise you if I say that we went into second hand stores? Didn't think so. I ended up buying a few books and one of them was in english! Yay! I don't know if I have said this before but I like reading books in english and prefer to have the books in english. Except, ofc, if the author is from Sweden. Then it's better in swedish. So I found a few from Camilla Läckberg. She's a swedish author who writes really good criminal books. I've read a few and came across three books for the price of 10 kr. That's so cheap! Love it!
The book in english is called Commencement and writen by J. Courtney Sullivan. I was actually looking for books not so long ago and saw this one. I decided not to put it on my "Book List" (yes I do have a list of books that I want and it's HUGE, might share it some day) 'cause I... I don't know. However I didn't and now I found it in a second hand store for only 5 kr! Man, that feels nice!

No, I don't have the candle their usually. Don't want my books to burn up. Not the house either btw. I just thought it looked good for the picture. Wow, Sofie you're such a photographer..

Found in a bag (it feels like I'm finding a lot of stuff now a days.. oupsiee) this book "Nu Är Det Jul Igen" and I got so nostalgic 'cause I read it a lot when I was a kid. Fitted perfect next to my advent candlestick! Christmas spirit here I come!

A while ago I said that I will put in the title how many days it was left for Christmas, on every post. As you noticed, I ended up forgetting it. Will do my best to remember it from now on. It's actually just a little bit over a month left! LOVE IT!

SOFIA WATCH THIS!

SHAKESPEARE

My bounty is as boundless as the sea,

My love as deep; the more I give to thee,

The more I have, for both are infinite.

ED SHEERAN

After been waiting for almost half a year the day is arriving. How can this be? I will tomorrow leave my friends house (I'm going there tonight with my sister) and drive up to Stockholm too, finally, see Ed Sheeran! It's so unreal to me and I can't believe it. I don't think I will understand that I've seen him until after the concert. But that's fine, as long as everything goes well. It will not go as planned, 'cause it never does, but just go well. I've been waiting for this day so long. I missed him in Baltimore, 'cause I was working. So when I found out that he was  coming to Stockholm I got ridiculously happy.

Then I got a bit mad, how was I supposed to know what I was going to do during that time? I didn't have a clue what I was going to do with my time after Baltimore. It got even worse when my sister got tickets and I didn't. To be honest, I thought it was pretty unfair. But a few weeks later I ended up with tickets and have been so, so, so excited about it since then. I'M ACTUALLY GOING TO SEE HIM!! Woooooooow...

I totally love his songs and his latest album X (multiply) is so good. It's just amazing. I love that he has a lot of different genres, acoustic, alternative/indie, pop, rap. He's just a mixture of everything! How great isn't that? 

It's also really cool how he build up the songs. Watch this clip and you'll see what I talk about.
If you don't wanna watch the whole clip, watch from 0:42.

Okay, I won't botter you with more of this right now. I'll do it in a few days when I get home but for now I'm done. 

CHRISTMAS WORKSHOP DAY - 45 DAYS TO GO!

I will now start puting how many days it's left for Christmas on every post I make. Just so you can remember it and not forget about Christmas!

O what a day! It's been such a lovely day today. Went to the church  with my family today and then when we came home we started our planned Christmas Workshop day. We were sitting in the living room for 5-6 hours with one dinner break. It was so fun! We didn't really do that much but it doesn't matter, what matter is that we had a great time.
Dad joined in as well for a while, then he cooked dinner for us. It was delicious! He had cooked a whole chicken but I sadly couldn't eat from it. (I'm a vegetarian if you remember.) But my dad's so sweet so had made me lentils instead. Which were really good, so I put some in my lunchbox for tomorrow. 

When I was looking for candles before I found this poster, that you can see below. (That's one of many from my mum. They're old and SO beautiful!) So I just had to put it up and now that Hallowen I'm more "allowed" to put it up. 100% sure my mum would disagree but hey, she's not home and she doesn't have a say in it, hehe. 

I made a garland today, as you can see. I'm not sure if you can see what it is. I know what it is since I made it. But as you can see in the picture below is that it's christmas trees. Yay, for christmas! And on the bottom of every part it says "Merry Christmas" in swedish. 

The Hobbit: The Battle of the Five Armies

I LITERALLY can't wait for the last Hobbit to come out! I'm a HUGE fan of both Lord Of The Rings and The Hobbit!
The books are great, not the best ones I've read I admit, but they're still so enchanting that it keeps you going on and makes you go through the more dull parts as well. And in the end it's so worth it! But this is just the LOTR books not The Hobbit. That book is not as dry. It's an easier language so it's easier to read and it's funny. Not in like a comdy kind of way, but still funny. I really recommend you to read The Hobbit. If you really like LOTR you should read thoose books too. You will understand so much more and get a lot of things described for you. 

The movies, OMG, don't even get me started. Peter Jackson succeeds time after time! And I'm 110% certain that he won't fail me this time either! The movies are absolutely splendid! Ofc, they're not completely after the books, but what movie is? Does it makes the movie less good? NO FREAKING WAY!!
Then we have Howard Shore (he did the music in the movies). (I'm a person who cannot watch a movie without listening to the music as well, it defines if the movie is good or not. Good music = I'll like it more. Bad music = The movie will fall in my eyes.) So Howard Shore is a complete GENIOUS(!!!!!) and should be given tons of rewards for his magnificent compositions. Without him the movies would not gone far. And I'm beeing completely honest. 

The actors are great as well and I can't think about anyone else suited for the rolls better than the ones that are acting. Aragorn, Gandalf, Frodo, Sam, Pippin, Merry, Legolas, Gimli, Gollum, Rosie, the Orcs, etc. Such a perfect cast!

OMG, EVERYTHING IS JUST COMPLETELY BRILLIANT!

THIS COULD BE ME

Sorry, but it's in swedish and their is not english subtitles, so you all can understand.. But I'll sum it up for you guys. 

He gets mad when he can't fit the cookie in the glas of milk and starts overreacting. What the other boy is trying to explain is that he can split it in two, but not really succeeding. I think you'll figure out the rest by yourself, the body language is not to hard to read.
Haha, this could so be me! 

WELL PUT

Here we go.

I came across Carrie Hope Fletchers blog today, didn't know she had one. I've been watching her videos on youtube - ItsWayPastMyBedTime - for a while. You guys should check her out. I'm always in the run for new books to read and she suggest some really good ones!
But however, what I wanted to come to is that I read her latest post and I just wanted you guys to read it to, 'cause it touches something (for me) very important.
So many people are occupied about how everyone else see them and how they see themselves and forget to be happy and live their lives. It's not a bad thing, everyone strives to be liked in some way or another. So read this, you may not agree, but that's fine.

You ARE A Soul

“You don’t have a soul. You ARE a soul. You have a body.” - C.S. Lewis

I read this quote earlier this week and I had to sit back for a little while, in the chair of my dressing room, looking at it on the screen. “Celinde” I said in disbelief and nudged Celinde Schoenmaker, Les Mis’ current Fantine who I have the pleasure of sharing a dressing room with and sit directly next to, to get her attention and then gestured towards the screen. She made a noise of approval and also sat with me for a moment in pondering silence. 

We, human beings, constantly talk about finding soulmates, soul searching and doing what makes our soul happy but then we also harp on about calories, how many pounds we’ve shed or gained, how frizzy our hair is, how much our nail beds suck… There’s absolutely NOTHIING wrong with wanting to look your best. I did my make-up before leaving the house this morning. As I do every morning. I colour co-ordinated my outfit too. I want more tattoos. Having an opinion on how you look and wanting to change things about your appearance isn’t a bad thing. It becomes a bad thing when it consumes our lives and we forget about our souls. Our body is just the casing. It’s the wrapper on the chocolate bar. It’s paper on the birthday presents. It’s the bit that we coat in make-up, tattoos, pretty clothes, jewellery and hairspray to make ourselves feel more at home in our own skin. But what’s the point in decorating a house if no one lives there? What’s the point in an exciting wrapper if the chocolate bar tastes like crap? Why wrap up a present in ribbons and paper if there’s nothing in the box? It’s our soul that is the most important thing. If our souls aren’t happy then it doesn’t matter how great our shells look. If we aren’t happy, that unhappiness will seep through that shell no matter how much we try to hide it. On the flip side, if we don’t think our bodies look the best, our happy soul will shine through that shell regardless and you’ll glow far brighter than the people who have glammed up their shells to the max but whose souls lay forgotten, shrivelled and dying on the inside. 

You ARE a soul. You HAVE a body. Do with your body what you wish. It’s your body after all and it’s hugely important but it’s home to your soul. You don’t decorate the fish bowl with plants, models of castles and treasure chests and pebbles and let the fish die, do you? So decorate as much as you wish but make sure you feed the fish! 

xxx

Here is her blog alliknownow.

MY LONG TIME OFF WORK

Long time no see.

Me, Caroline, Matilda and Paulina

A few things have happend since last time. 

Tuesday evening I went to see my High School friend Petra. She came and picked me up at work with two other girls that I also went to High School with. It was so lovely to see them again! Haven't seen Paulina since graduation and Caroline I have only met once since graduation. Another of Petras friend showed up to, and she was great. So I had a lovely time and we were up half of the night and waked up early. So with other words almost no sleep, but so worth it. I went home and my long time off work started (five full days!). Allthough to be more precise it started tuesday evening. 

On thursday I went to Väla, which is a huge shoppingmall with my friend. I had a huge list with stuff to buy and I just kept making it smaller and smaller and changed a few things, 'cause I didn't feel like buying all of it, haha. Good job Sofie.. But I'm very pleased with the things I bought. I think I'm most pleased with the dress, that I'm very comfortable in(!), and the perfumes. And I bought both at the store Zara, love that store.

On friday I went to take a fika with my mum and youngest sister. We ending up playing Trouble, and it was so much fun! In the afternoon we started carving in our last good pumpkin from mums garden. It turned out really well!

After that it was time for me to start getting ready for the surprise night for Caroline (not the same as in the beginning of this text). I took the train up to Kungsbacka and we went bowling and then out to eat. The food was D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-S and it was no problem to get vegetarian food. 

Slept over at Carolines and went to see another friend during the day, haven't met him in over a year, so that was really fun! Then it was time to take the train down to Lund to my brother and my family that was visiting him. I met a friend on the train and one of her friends so I had company all the way down, which was really fun. 

When arriving in Lund it was time for me to go bowling again, with my family this time. Had so much fun. Let me just tell you that I'm no good at bowling, at all. I sometimes can get a bit of luck, but I have no idea how I do it. Haha! And then afterwards we went out to eat and ended up in a chinese restauant.

And now it's sunday and I have just finished writing my CV and personal letter! (Okay not completely done yet, but almost.) It only took me 2 ½ year to finish it.. Omg, can't believe it actually has taken me that long to finsih it! But well, well, now it's done. 

Need to start looking for a new job before spring. My substitut employment is over at christmas, but I will probably have a few days in the beginning of january. 

My last words will be, I really like beeing a vegetarian! 

LIKE. DISLIKE.

Like.

• Tea, hot choclate, smell of coffe beans
• Books(!) - Romantic, criminal, coozy, sci-fi, etc.
• Spend time with family and friends
• A good and hard physical work day - I sleep so good after that
• Food, cake and CHOCLATE - Mmmm
• Listening to music, playing my instruments
• A good nights sleep
• Movies - Everything except scary movies
• Fall and Winter 
• The countryside
• Democracy
• Sweden - It's really beautiful. I really love that we have so distinct differences in our seasons. We have them all; winter, spring, summer, autumn.

Dislike.

• Plastic - I realize it's impossible to avoid but I try to use it as little as possible. The biggest reason is 'cause of the enviroment. There is also other reasons like how your body react to plastic, all the toxis in it, etc. 
• When it's to warm outside - You always start to sweat so much, and I don't know about you but I always start to smell bad.
• How animals are raised for slaughter - Most of it is in the worst conditions and sircumstances, it takes so much energy that could be used for more important things and they're getting feed with so much crap!
• Medical Industry - They give you medicine for your symptom and never go back to the actual cause, which usually is your nutrition. And every pill you get is FILLED with so much crap that your body can't take care of! I'm not saying that all medicine is crap, what my point is that hospitals give out TO MUCH. 
• The social media's view on women - No wonder every other woman is feeling bad about themselves and especially young girls! H A T E  I T!
• Commercials - "Buy this and you will become like this.", "You'll be happier if you have this.", "Complete your life with this.". Seriously, you will not under any circumstances be happier and feel good about yourself, in the long run, by having it.
• Teenage marriage - Do I even have to explain why?
• Poverty, war, dictatorship - The classic ones. 

REUNION

So here I am again.
Today I was supposed to work but after beeing sick I'm home instead. Later this afternoon I will take the bus to my cousin 'cause tomorrow it's time for a test for Univeristy. I'm not applaying for univeristy but it's always good to have done the test. In swedish it's called högskoleprov. It's kind of a special test, so not a regular one. And it also works a bit differently.

But however today I have been looking through my computer of pictures of me and Anni (for you that don't know who she is, she's my finnish friend who were in United States with me). It's not been to hard to find pictures, 'cause there's a lot! Like a lot, a lot. It's been a bit heartbreaking watching through them but also I've been laughing so hard 'cause were not like normal people togheter. In fact, were never like normal people, not even apart. I have never ever known anyone like her and she is THE weirdest and funniest friend I have. Here's a picture of the first concert we went to together. What a day! Miss her so much but we're hoping for a reunion in january!

HOW WELL DO WE FIT IN THE BOX?

My beautiful, beatiful cousin. Love her so much and I am so fortunate to have had the opportunity to live with her for 3 years. She really is something extraordinary! I wish everyone has someone like her in their lives!

I remember this day so well! It was a friday after school and I was going away for the weekend and had little time to go and see her and we just started goofing of as usual. She has this boxes in her room that she fills with stuff and out of nowhere we just took it out and started making funny faces and tried so hard to fit into this boxes. It was hilarious and we had such a good time. 

Yesterday I decided to text her and ask if I could come and visit, I'm not working tomorrow, and she answered that it would be lovely! So right now I'm on my way to spend the night with her. She makes me so happy! 

TWO MONTHS AND I WANT CHRISTMAS

My Christmas spirit is on top today! I seriously can't wait for Christmas to come! Mom is not fond of me putting up the advent candlestick, that I found in the storage today, but, mohaha, I love it and I am soon on my way to buy ginger thins to lift my christmas spririt to the next level.

As you can see above I have put a few more books on my piano, my current shelf. I got a book last week, The Fault In Our Stars, in swedish and since I already have that one, but in english, she gave me the receipt to change the book. I decided to find another one of John Green, Paper Towns. When I got to the store yesterday with my brother I found it pretty quickly and also another one by him, An Abundance Of Katherines, and decided pretty easily to take that one too. I don't really know what it's about, but since it's by John Green I expect it to be good.

This is where I have been spending most of my day. My "book shelf" (a few books missing that are in boxes and at my grandparents house), my tea, choclate, christmas music, advent candlestick and my piano as my desk (since I don't have an actuall desk right now)! My mood has been joined by the pouring rain outside. So it has been on of thoose days when you just enjoy beeing inside and can't imagine anything better to do with your time. And as I said before I am soon to eat my ginger thins dipped in milk.
I have a lot of people telling me it's to early for christmas music, but guys, it's only two months and a few days till christmas. TWO MONTHS! That's nothing, so I feel like I have the right to listen to it more seriously now.

Speaking of two months. It's exactly two months ago since I left Dullas Airport in Virgina to go home. The time really does fly and it scares me a bit and at the same time I love it. Can't wait to see what the last two and a half months of this year has to offer. Really looking forward to it!

Also I found today, while I was searching for my graduation box in the storage, a bag with books that I used to read when I was little. I got so nostalgic that I had to take them as well with me and they're so going up in my shelf, when I have one!

THE BEAUTY OF ENGLISH

As you probably noticed, in the first post, i wrote both in swedish and english. I will sometimes write just in swedish, sometimes just in english and if I have the time and energy I'll write in both. This 'cause I really enjoy both speaking and writing in English. I'm bad in both so why not just write in english, it's good practice.

I really, really enjoy speaking english. I miss speaking it. Everyday i expanded my vocabulary and I felt good about it. I would probably describe it as an inner satisfaction that I finally reached. I am now good at something that I never really considered myself good at. I admit, without hesitation, that I do not speak grammatically correct im any ways.

All my years in school I never wanted to have english lessons. I always liked english but there were so many of my classmates that were so good that I, unfortunately, felt much worse and insecure at my own skills.

Thank God, that thoose days seems to be over. Now I can enjoy it instead!

GIOVANNA FLETCHER

Giovanna Fletcher. 

This woman really knows how to write. She catches you quickly after just a few pages. Her books are very coozy and not to predictable. What I mean with that is that you can predict a few things but she also knows how to surprise you. It really is one of thoose authors that knows what the readers wants and manage to give them what they want. She is also doing vloggs on youtube, under the name of Giovannasworld. It's always a blast watching them 'cause she is funny and has a lot of humor.. If I ever were to meet her that would be the best!

I only, sadly, have the first book, Billy and Me. But I'm so planning on getting the other ones as well. The latest book of her, Christmas with Billy and Me, is coming out soon! Looking forward to read it and but the book in my nonexisting shelf. 

THE FIFTH-GENERATION HOUSE

This house has been in our family since it was built in 1861. It's a small cottage with so much history! So right now we are the fifth generation living here. Mum hopes that one of us kids will take it over later on. Buuut there still not to old (under 50 both of them) and will be around for a long time. I know for sure that my mum won't leave until absolutely necessary and if she can prevent it, she definitely will!

It's kind of a lifelong process this house. There's a lot to be done in the garden, and all the land around that we owe, not to mention the house it self. Then we have the barn to of course. This past weeks I've been painting the foundationa at the barn white when I had the time, finally, and now I just want to fix the rest to.
My parents have decided that they want sheeps, so now they're building a sheep house. The sheeps are planned to be bought next year. Now we have 2 dogs, 3 cats, chickens, bees and soon sheeps. I would say we're coming up to have half a farm. Only cows, horses and pigs left. 

LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THE DAY WHEN..

..I drank to many cups of tea. 

A day, not so long ago. I was free from work. When I woke up in the morning I decided to drink a cup of tea to my breakfast. What I hadn't planned was that I was going to continue to drink tea thoughout the whole day, non stop. So by the end of the day I was up in about 12 cups. I should mention that my tea cup is a little bit bigger then a regular cup and I'm used to drinking only around 3-4 cups a day. Was this a good or a bad idea? Well, if you see to all the times I had to go to the bathroom and how my belly felt the next day, maybe not. If you see to how good it tasted and the satisfaction I got then my answer is definitely yes.

BEAUTY AND MY GRANDMA'S OLD SWEATER

BECAUSE MY LIFE IS SO INTERESTING

Här är jag igen fast på en annan sida och med en annan inriktning. Eller det beror väl lite på vilken inriktning man tänker på. Tänker ni på om det kommer fortsätta på ett flummigt och totalt vem-är-denna-personen-och-hur-tänker-hon-och-varför-skriver-hon-inte-mer-vettiga-saker-? sättet så har ni helt rätt.

Finns det några andra som tänker att ÄNTLIGEN hon kommer inte ha en massa stavfel längre eller särskriva ord! Mina kära vänner, detta kommer aldrig hända av den enkla anledningen att jag inte har någon lust att lära mig och aldrig haft en vettig svenska lärare mina sista år i skolan som bankat in det i huvudet på mig. En vacker dag kanske jag kommer vakna upp och inse att jag vill bli svenskalärare? (Detta kommer ju aldrig hända, men det var därför jag skrev kanske.) Vad gör jag då? Jo tar tag i min underbart fula skrivning och får försöka hitta någon röd tråd i allt nonsens som jag skriver och faktiskt får ta och börja formulera mig på ett vettigt humant sätt. Är väldigt säker på att man inte kan skriva så på svenska men just nu är jag ingen svenskalärare så då bryr jag mig nada!

Så vad jag skulle komma till i början av denna text var att min inriktsbytning är att jag inte kommer skriva om mitt USA liv (inslag kommer väl dock komma) för det är pase och jag är i Sverige och kanske några andra länder snart. Men det vet jag inte mer om än ni själva.

(Jag undrar om inriktsbytning är ett ord i svenska ordboken för min skärm säger mig att det inte existerar. Så nu klappar jag mig på axeln för att jag "kommit på" ett nytt ord.)


Får väl fortsätta med att försöka förklara min rubrik.
Jag satt uppe i natten och skypade med Sofia (min svenne i Chicago) och hon nämnde att hon tyckte jag skulle fortsätta blogga och nu om mitt liv tillbaks i Sverige. Min tanke då var ju nej. Eller för att vara mer ärlig ett njaa.. Det är rätt skönt att ha ett ställe att skriva av sig alla sina icke sammanhängande/konstiga tankar på. Så efter att ha gått och lagt sig alldeles för sent inatt och vakna 3 timmar senare, klockan 6 på morgonen, av en så HEJDUNDRANDE MENSVÄRK SÅ ATT MAN BARA VILL ÅKA GENOM GOLVET OCH DÖ SAMTIDIGT SOM MAN KRÄNGER CHOKLAD så bestämde jag mig för att jamenvisst jag kan väl skriva lite då och då.
Jag misstänker att det inte lär handla så mycket om livet hemma och vad jag gör utan mer om, ja, allt och ingenting och vad som finns däremellan.
Jag kommer definitivt inte vara någon regelbunden uppdaterare utan detta är mer för dig Sofia. Ska vi ge någon cred för att jag gör detta så är det till Sofia. Är det någon annan som av någon anledning blir glad av att jag börjar igen så tacka Sofia. Ja, jag gillar att skriva Sofia i varje mening. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia.

Nu får ni ha det så bra och tycker ni borde vänta med spänning på nästa inlägg för inte ens jag vet om vad det kommer skrivas om. Fast några världsnyheter lär det inte bli.

PS. Mensvärk är verkligen något av det jobbigaste som finns. Du vet aldrig hur ont du kommer ha och du vet aldrig när du får den. Man kan räkna ut på ett ungefär men det är bara ett ungefär! HUR i hela kalkonens värld ska ett UNGEFÄR hjälpa en?
Ni vet sådana armband där det står FUCK CANCER? Borde göra ett sådant där det står FUCK MENSVÄRK.
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Here I am again but with different focus. Well, it depends on what kind of focus we are thinking about. If you are thinking that it is going to continue in the same mixed up way and totally who-is-this-person-and-how-is-she-thinking-and-why-is-she-not-writing-about-more-important-stuff-? then you are completely right.

If there is other people thinking FINALLY she will start writing grammatically right! My Dear friends, this will never happen by the simple reason that I am not intrested in learning and have not had a decent teacher my last years in school. Maybe one morning I will wake up and realize that I would like to become a teacher in Swedish? (This will never happen that is why I wrote maybe.) What will I do then? Well, then I will have to start taking care of my incredible ugly writing and and try to find a red tread in all the nonsense I am writing and start formulating myself in a correct way. But right now I am no teacher in language so I do not care at all!

So what I was going to come to in the beginning of this text is that my change of focus is not going to be about the States anymore (it may occur sometimes though) because that time is over and I am in Sweden now, and maybe in some other countries soon. But I do not know more about that than you do.

So to the topic of this post.
I sat up this past night skyping with Sofia (ma swedish gurl in Chicago) and she mentioned that she would like for me to continue blogging and now about my life back home. My first thought was no, but to be more honest a nyeee.. It is pretty nice to have a place where you can write all your weird thoughts.
So after going to bed waaay to late and waking up 3 hours later, at 6 am, by a TREMENDOUS MENSTRUAL CRAMPS SO I JUST WANTED TO SINK THROUGH THE FLOOR AND DIE WHILE EATING CHOCLATE I decided that I can write sometimes.
I am pretty convinced that it will not be so much about my life home but more about, well, everything and nothing and the things in between.
I will definintily not be a regular updater 'cause this is more for Sofia sake. Should we give credit to someone for this it is Sofia. If someone gets happy 'cause I start writing again you should give your thanks to Sofia. Yes, I like writing Sofia in every sentence. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia. Sofia.

Now, have a good time and I think that you should wait with eager for the next update 'cause not even I know what it is going to be about. Though it will probably not be some world news.

PS. Menstrual cramps are really one of the hardest things that there is. You never know how much pain you will be in and you never know when you will get it. You can count out approximate time you will get it but that is only APPROXIMATE TIME! HOW is that going to help you know?
You know the bracelets that says FUCK CANCER? I should make one that says FUCK PERIODS.