CHRISTMAS IS COMING

Last week I applied for a break from my studying in Malmö. So happy about my decision. I'll finish this term though, so I officially end the 13th of Januari. One exam out of four is done for this course. I'm almost finished with the second one exam, the third one we've started and the fourth I can't really start on until we've completely decided what to use on the third exam.

So, now that I don't have any school in the spring I went, yesterday, to a job intervju. And today I signed the papers. Yay! Feels good and I'm excited and nervous to start working in January. But I will only be working during the spring. In the autumn I plan to apply to Kristianstad. I've heard its better there, the program.

What also happened yesterday was that Simon left with his family and friends of the family to Vietnam. They are going to be there over Christmas and New Years. So I'm not seeing him in three weeks. I'm happy for him, ofc, but I also miss him. Can't wait for him to be back so I can hug him really hard so I break his ribs. Not really, but I do wish that the time will fly fast so I can see him. Now we'll have to speak over the phone. I dislike talking on the phone, but at the same time I'm looking forward to it.
As much as I hate being away from each other I think it's a good thing too. It makes me realize how much i care for him and I can feel the butterflies in the pit of my stomach when I think about seeing him again.

Well, that's all for me. I have a headache that won't go away so I'll sleep it of now and tomorrow it's time for Christmas at my aunts place. Can't believe it's Christmas already..

ANOTHER TRY

I tried talking a bit to much my teacher on Friday how I'm feeling about everything. It didn't go as well as I had hoped.. Tomorrow I will give it another shot and depending on how it goes I'm done. I can't take it anymore. I'm bored to death in that school and I can count on two hands what I have learned this term... It shouldn't be like that.. Crap school.

YOU GOT TO BE KIDDING ME RIGHT?!?!

Malmö Högskolas teaching programs sucks. At least now in the beginning. My choice of career I was really happy with in the beginning but now I doubt it. My school is awful and has made me doubt  what I'm doing. Also, the whole program is 3,5 years old and could easily be shorten with a semester (at least..). It's so much dead time just passing by. I have not done anything in three weeks. THREE WEEKS!! And I'm not even behind!! It's some kind of joke right?!?!
And when I've talked to teachers about it they just say that it's just the beginning of högskolan and they're taking it slow, I should be happy that it's easy and that I will get used to it.. BULLSHIT! And some classmates I've talked say it's sooo much to do, and they don't know how to keep up. Then for fudge sake they SHOULD NOT study at högskolan or university at all!!

I seriously can't get my head around this!! I've been trying to understand for three months now and I'm not even remotely close to a solution to this crap then I was my first week!
I studied at Lunds University last semester and it was completely the opposite! So much to do (and I loved it for most of the time), I had fun and was not even remotely bored (except maybe the grammar for a bit). Now? I'M BORED OUT OF MY MIND!! I so much rather have a bit to much to do then too little or more like nothing to do..

I'm gonna try to switch to Kristianstad Högskola instead. I'll have to travel a bit over two hours every day back and forth. But I've heard lots of good things about the school, so I think it will be worth a shot. Fingers crossed!


Last Friday we had to put our boxer, Signe, down.. She's been unwell for quite a while and it feels so weird and sad thinking about her not being around. She only became six years old and is buried next to her favorite stone.

THE DAY WHEN EVERYTHING GOES WRONG

Today has not been the best of days. Everything that should not go wrong has gone wrong. I came to the conclusion earlier today that the best thing I could have done was to stay in bed this morning. Nothing could have gone wrong then and also nothing can go wrong when your in bed under your duvet watching movies/tv-shows all day. My PMS mode swings has/are not helping me either.

Let me tell you one thing that happened today. I was warming my soup in the microwave and when I was going to take it out (I was a bit stressed and my mind was elsewhere) I accidentally tipped the bowl a bit and poured almost all of it over myself. Literally all over myself. The only thing I missed was my hair... But I burned my finger pretty bad, soup was everywhere, my clothes were drenched and I barely had time to eat and change before I had to go. Or I would have missed my lecture. And this was not the worst thing today.. But well, I won't tell you more than that.

I just faced time with one of my best friends that I wish I could see more then I do.. But it's not possible because we live in to different countries. But, after talking to her I feel much better. She made my day! Somehow she made me laugh and think of other things. So grateful to have her in my life! If our lives screws up we have decided that we will move to Spain (or other warm Spanish speaking) country were we will live together. Sounds like a good plan to me!

THE AUTUMN COLD HAS CAUGHT UP ON ME

After walking around the last few weeks with people being sick here and there it has finally caught up with me. My nose is stuffed, my head aching, my throat burns and my body temperature can't settle on just one temperature. BUT I managed to get to school on all days this week. With all days I mean monday-wendsday. I now have nothing until Monday and the paper is handed in today (few days early) and the presentation today went well! The next course doesn't start until Monday. YAY! So now I can finally be sick! Feels good. Not being sick of course but being able to lie in in the morning and lie there all day to just recover.

Oh, on Monday I also went to see the Pope in the arena in Malmö. Simon had got me a ticket (he was way more interested than I was). So now I have seen Pope Francis and this was also the first time that the Pope has ever set his foot in Sweden. Feels quite cool. I didn't even have to go to Italy to see him at the balcony. Instead I looked down on him from where I sat. Haha. It was quite a nice event, and some of the acts in between was really good. Liked especially the Tensta Gospel (from Stockholm) and the Circus act. In the program it also said Samuel Ljungblahd, but he never showed up.. Was a bit disappointed. He probably had to cancel in last minute. Well, I did see him this summer.

Anyways, I think it might be time for some ice-cream to calm down my throat.
Ps. I WANT SNOW! (It snowed in Jönköping last night! My friend send me a few snaps and I'm just a bit jelaous..)

ÖLAND - HARVEST FESTIVAL

(My friend Loc took these pictures)

ÖLAND - HARVEST FESTIVAL

(These photos are not mine, my friend Loc took them.) 

ÖLAND SUMMER OF 2016

SCOTLAND - JUNE 2016

It was so nice being back and just walk around in one of the best citys I know. Edinburgh! 

 

MALMLÖ HÖGSKOLA

It’s been quite some time now. The last few months have been very busy, and when I’ve not been busy I’ve been taking it slow, doing fun things and traveling to recover. It’s not been the best summer in one way, but I’ve learned a lot. But I don’t mind it being over either. Quite happy with being back in school and getting a bit of a regular routine again. 

I’m studying at Malmö Högskola at the moment. To be honest, I’m not completely satisfied with the education here. Or it might be some of the teachers? Anyway, I like it when it’s structure and yes and no answers and you know what you’re supposed to do. Well so far it’s not been a lot of structure, a lot of vague answers or typical ”political” answers (example: ”Do you like bananas? ”I think apples are very tasty.”). It drives me nuts. But I’m gonna give it more time and crossing my fingers that it will be better soon! 

Otherwise, me and Simon have half a year next week. That’s just weird. I don’t understand it. I still can’t get my head around such a thing as time. It makes me feel so small. 

Oh, and also next Saturday is time for another wedding. Looking forward to it. I bought a dress for the occasion, and of course it’s to long. But I handed it in yesterday to get it sowed up. It will be done in next week and it only cost me 325 kr. It might be much, idk, but I thought it was an okay price.

My view to school everyday. My school i on the left.

TIME

Yesterday was five months since i left Scotland. Can't believe it. Today I have two months with Simon. Say what? Tomorrow I have my last exam. Weird! Everything is so weird now a days but at the same time so good. It feels like I just left Scotland and moved to Lund, but as I've lived here for longer at the same time. It feels like I started at uni two months ago, but it's almost five months now. It feels like I became a girlfriend last week, but it was two months ago.
Time is fascinating.

In three weeks, today, I will show Simon my beautiful Scotland. He'll stay over the weekend, but I will stay for a whole week! YES. Looking forward to it.
And in five weeks my wonderful Anni will finally be here with me! It will be crazy and hilarious!
And I'm now invited to three weddings this summer. So much fun!

Went down to see Ales Stenar in Kåseberga last weekend with great company.

VARBERG CASTLE

LONG TIME NO SEE

It's unbelievable how much things you can have going on in your life. All the work, pressure, stress from school. Getting used to having a boyfriend. Yes, I have a boyfriend. Crazy, I know. All the thoughts if I have chosen right education - I have applied for preschool teacher in Malmö in autumn. But it feels good so far, and I know I'll do a good job. After all, I've worked with kids for two and a half year and I still love kids. And I worked at a nursery for five months. So I think I'm safe.

At the moment, with school, I have no motivation at all. And it's been like this for three weeks. I still enjoy spanish, it's good fun speaking it and the lectures are intresting (for most parts). But it's to academic for me, and I'm not that kind of person. Also, partly I'm unmotivated because I don't have a goal with it anymore except for my own purpose. I mean, I'm not going to use it now afterwards. Which makes me think what the point is? But I've done more than half of the term now. Only one and a half month to go! Weird. Crazy.

Two days ago I got a summer job here in Lund, at a home care. So nice!! It felt good because she kinda just handed it over after a few minutes, she didn't even feel like calling my references. It's nice to have that out of the world and know that I will do something this summer. Not only sit and mop about. I can do that for a wee while but in the long run? No way. Way to boring.

Yesterday we were a few friends who went to IKEA in Malmö. Finally I have curtains and a few more plants in my room. Who knew that it makes such a difference with curtains. It's definitely better now! 

I will see Lund in all it's glory this summer with Anni for a week!! I'm so excited, less than three months until she'll be here with me!!!

I'M NOT DEAD. YET...

I'm alive, just very stressed and busy. I've been doing schoolwork almost all day today. It's so much going on in school and outside of school. I've not been this busy or stressed in a long time! It's not all that negative, after all I like having things to do. But I've not been able to just have a moment to myself and just relax this weekend and I know I it will affect me during the week. I've literally had no rest and little sleep. But hey ho another few weeks and then hopefully it will calm down a bit and I'll get to have a day off. But I will take a day off soon, no matter what, if it doesn't improve.

NEWS

Yesterday it was decided that I will stay in Sweden, Lund to be more precise, next semester too. Relief and excitment are two words that describe my feelings very well. It will be nice to finally settle down in some way, not always be on the go, and also to be able to enjoy the company of my friends around here for a longer period of time, not to mention have "regular" routines. My friends are excited, my brother is excited, the rest of my family is excited, I'm excited. All that is left is that I have to send one email. And then it's official.

The last few days I've been studying from 9-18 every day. Have a big exam next weekend and my friend is coming down to visit for a few days next week so I have to study a lot more now. But it's fine. It will be nice to have som days off in the middle of the week instead. I have, surprisingly, been very effective as well these last days. But today it's taking quite a lot of will power to focus. I'm taking a day off tomorrow, monday and tuesday is full days again and then on friday I will be looking through it all again. So I should be okay.

EDINBURGH VS LUND - WHO WILL WIN?

I have to keep reminding myself that I've just lived here 4 weeks. I'm thinking quite a lot about what to do next. Especially in the autumn. I have something lined up but I'm so confused and unsure off if I should do it or not. I know it will be a great and very rewarding experience but at the same time it would be really nice to stay in one place for a a bit longer and get some more of a regular-routine-life. It is hard for me to settle down in one place for a longer period of time, there's just to much to see and do in life. Staying "to long" gives me the feeling of wasting time since I could discover new people and places instead. BUT at the same time it's hard to get a deeper relationship with people if I keep moving just when it takes that extra step. I have to remember that it will solve itself. God handles it. But it sadly doesn't stop me from worrying and spending hours and hours switching back and forth. 

Another thing that keeps nagging me is where I should study. Edinburgh or Lund? Lund or Edinburgh? Edinburgh? Lund? I have no fecking clue! You know, I feel really content and happy in both places. It's nice to have that feeling but it also makes the decision so much more harder. I know what my friends here want and I know what my friends in Scotland want. So in that way it doesn't really help, allthough it's nice to know that people like my abnormal personality traits and company.

It will be intresting to see who wins in the end. Lund or Edinburgh?!

(Don't have a picture of Lund yet so it will have to do with one of Edinburgh.) 

Soon I have a big 'fika' with the whole building and then after I'm going over to my cousins and there they have something called a "syjunta". Which is basically a bunch of friends getting together sewing, knitting, crocheing, playing games and chatting. My first time so I hope it's nice. But heard a lot good about it, so I'm not to worried.

NEW YEARS RESOLUTION 2015

When 2015 began I gave myself a New Years resolution. Not one that I'll for sure break, but one that I'll be able to keep. I was going to read as many books as I turned, in age, that year. So I had to read at least 21 books last year. Did I manage to keep it? You bet I did!! And I'm also going to do the same for this year! So this time, I'll have to beat 22. Quite positive I can make it!

Here's my list of books read during 2015:

1. Predikanten - Camilla Läckberg
2. One Million Lovely Letters - Jodi Ann Bickley
3. The Best thing that Never Happened To Me - Laura Tait & Jimmy Rice
4. Summer With My Sister - Lucy Diamond
5. Just One Day - Gayle Forman
6. Me Before You - Jojo Moyes
7. The Rosie Project - Graeme Simsion
8. The Curvy Girls Club - Michele Gorman
9. The Rosie Effect - Graeme Simsion
10. Thursdays In The Park - Hilary Boyd
11. Gone Girl - Gillian Flynn
12. If You Could See Me Now - Cecilia Ahern
13. Making Your Mind Up - Jill Mansell
14. All I Know Now - Carrie Hope Fletcher
15. Where Rainbows End - Cecilia Ahern
16. The Girl You Left Behind - Jojo Moyes
17. Dream A Little Dream - Giovanna Fletcher
18. Eleanor & Park - Rainbow Rowell
19. Outlander - Diana Gabaldon
20. It Started At Sunset Cottage - Bella Osborne
21. Dragonfly In Amber - Diana Gabaldon
22. The Woman Who Stole My Life - Marian Keyes
23. Voyage - Diana Gabaldon
24. Dream A Little Christmas Dream - Giovanna Fletcher 
25. Where She Went - Gayle Forman

MISS THIS PLACE WITH ALL MY BEING

TO BIT OFF MORE THAN ONE CAN CHEW / TA SIG VATTEN ÖVER HUVUDET

It's been a bit dead here since I moved to Sweden. At the moment is 'cause I'm settling in as best as I can in my room, with my corridor neighbours, at university, getting used to having homework again and still trying to understand that it will take some time before I see Schottish hills again. But I'm fine except that I still got the cold - not sure if I have mentioned it before - but I think it might be gone soon. At least I hope so 'cause blowing my nose every five minutes it's not that much fun. It's been so bad that I've decided to study in my room instead of going to the library - so I won't disturb anyone. During clases there's not that much that I can do about it but I didn't have any clas yesterday, today and I don't have any tomorrow. So so far I'm getting to know this four walls quite well.

With Uni and Spanish I feel like I have bitten off more than I can chew at the moment. I have a lot of  proper studying to do in the next few months!! Especially with the grammar. I've never had any intrest in grammar - and I still don't - and it's horrendously boring! But sooner or later I'll have to learn. And to be honest, I prefer sooner than later. 

Now I'm gonna watch a movie, go to sleep and when I wake up I have a date with grammar. 

SETTLING IN

I moved down to Lund four days ago. I'm settling in quite well so far but I won't be here during this week. They need extra personel at my old work this week so I'm helping out. The course will start in a weeks time so that's perfect. There's still a few things that needs to be fixed before school starts but I do have a whole week to go, so I'll be fine. 

When we moved down all my things on thursday I realized that half of all the boxes - if not more - consisted of books. They're now divided into two different shelves deepending if they're in English or Swedish. I can mention that most of them are in English. And if I know myself I will be able to add a few more before this term is over. My brother thought it was hilarious that I packed up my books before anything else, not clothes like most people do. 

My piano and guitar - still don't know how to play the guitar but I'm going to learn - are down here with me too. Forgot my ukulele but I'll bring it down on Friday. Oh yeah I got a yellow ukulele for christmas from my siblings. So got to learn to play that too! Looking forward to it. 

I also realized that I managed to bring with me nine tea/coffee cups. I thought I only had 7.. But I'm quite proud of myself just bringing nine. 'Cause I have +/- 30 I think. I've never counted them so this is just me guessing. 

Moving away from Scotland has been hard. At the moment I'm keeping myself distant from it, but it will catch up with me soon. I miss my family, friends there and the country. Scotland will always have a special place in my heart and I'll visit as soon as I can and keep on visiting. It wouldn't surprise me if I moved there one day, but for now I'm content living in Sweden.