ÖLAND SUMMER OF 2016

SCOTLAND - JUNE 2016

It was so nice being back and just walk around in one of the best citys I know. Edinburgh! 

 

MALMLÖ HÖGSKOLA

It’s been quite some time now. The last few months have been very busy, and when I’ve not been busy I’ve been taking it slow, doing fun things and traveling to recover. It’s not been the best summer in one way, but I’ve learned a lot. But I don’t mind it being over either. Quite happy with being back in school and getting a bit of a regular routine again. 

I’m studying at Malmö Högskola at the moment. To be honest, I’m not completely satisfied with the education here. Or it might be some of the teachers? Anyway, I like it when it’s structure and yes and no answers and you know what you’re supposed to do. Well so far it’s not been a lot of structure, a lot of vague answers or typical ”political” answers (example: ”Do you like bananas? ”I think apples are very tasty.”). It drives me nuts. But I’m gonna give it more time and crossing my fingers that it will be better soon! 

Otherwise, me and Simon have half a year next week. That’s just weird. I don’t understand it. I still can’t get my head around such a thing as time. It makes me feel so small. 

Oh, and also next Saturday is time for another wedding. Looking forward to it. I bought a dress for the occasion, and of course it’s to long. But I handed it in yesterday to get it sowed up. It will be done in next week and it only cost me 325 kr. It might be much, idk, but I thought it was an okay price.

My view to school everyday. My school i on the left.

TIME

Yesterday was five months since i left Scotland. Can't believe it. Today I have two months with Simon. Say what? Tomorrow I have my last exam. Weird! Everything is so weird now a days but at the same time so good. It feels like I just left Scotland and moved to Lund, but as I've lived here for longer at the same time. It feels like I started at uni two months ago, but it's almost five months now. It feels like I became a girlfriend last week, but it was two months ago.
Time is fascinating.

In three weeks, today, I will show Simon my beautiful Scotland. He'll stay over the weekend, but I will stay for a whole week! YES. Looking forward to it.
And in five weeks my wonderful Anni will finally be here with me! It will be crazy and hilarious!
And I'm now invited to three weddings this summer. So much fun!

Went down to see Ales Stenar in Kåseberga last weekend with great company.

VARBERG CASTLE

LONG TIME NO SEE

It's unbelievable how much things you can have going on in your life. All the work, pressure, stress from school. Getting used to having a boyfriend. Yes, I have a boyfriend. Crazy, I know. All the thoughts if I have chosen right education - I have applied for preschool teacher in Malmö in autumn. But it feels good so far, and I know I'll do a good job. After all, I've worked with kids for two and a half year and I still love kids. And I worked at a nursery for five months. So I think I'm safe.

At the moment, with school, I have no motivation at all. And it's been like this for three weeks. I still enjoy spanish, it's good fun speaking it and the lectures are intresting (for most parts). But it's to academic for me, and I'm not that kind of person. Also, partly I'm unmotivated because I don't have a goal with it anymore except for my own purpose. I mean, I'm not going to use it now afterwards. Which makes me think what the point is? But I've done more than half of the term now. Only one and a half month to go! Weird. Crazy.

Two days ago I got a summer job here in Lund, at a home care. So nice!! It felt good because she kinda just handed it over after a few minutes, she didn't even feel like calling my references. It's nice to have that out of the world and know that I will do something this summer. Not only sit and mop about. I can do that for a wee while but in the long run? No way. Way to boring.

Yesterday we were a few friends who went to IKEA in Malmö. Finally I have curtains and a few more plants in my room. Who knew that it makes such a difference with curtains. It's definitely better now! 

I will see Lund in all it's glory this summer with Anni for a week!! I'm so excited, less than three months until she'll be here with me!!!

I'M NOT DEAD. YET...

I'm alive, just very stressed and busy. I've been doing schoolwork almost all day today. It's so much going on in school and outside of school. I've not been this busy or stressed in a long time! It's not all that negative, after all I like having things to do. But I've not been able to just have a moment to myself and just relax this weekend and I know I it will affect me during the week. I've literally had no rest and little sleep. But hey ho another few weeks and then hopefully it will calm down a bit and I'll get to have a day off. But I will take a day off soon, no matter what, if it doesn't improve.

NEWS

Yesterday it was decided that I will stay in Sweden, Lund to be more precise, next semester too. Relief and excitment are two words that describe my feelings very well. It will be nice to finally settle down in some way, not always be on the go, and also to be able to enjoy the company of my friends around here for a longer period of time, not to mention have "regular" routines. My friends are excited, my brother is excited, the rest of my family is excited, I'm excited. All that is left is that I have to send one email. And then it's official.

The last few days I've been studying from 9-18 every day. Have a big exam next weekend and my friend is coming down to visit for a few days next week so I have to study a lot more now. But it's fine. It will be nice to have som days off in the middle of the week instead. I have, surprisingly, been very effective as well these last days. But today it's taking quite a lot of will power to focus. I'm taking a day off tomorrow, monday and tuesday is full days again and then on friday I will be looking through it all again. So I should be okay.

EDINBURGH VS LUND - WHO WILL WIN?

I have to keep reminding myself that I've just lived here 4 weeks. I'm thinking quite a lot about what to do next. Especially in the autumn. I have something lined up but I'm so confused and unsure off if I should do it or not. I know it will be a great and very rewarding experience but at the same time it would be really nice to stay in one place for a a bit longer and get some more of a regular-routine-life. It is hard for me to settle down in one place for a longer period of time, there's just to much to see and do in life. Staying "to long" gives me the feeling of wasting time since I could discover new people and places instead. BUT at the same time it's hard to get a deeper relationship with people if I keep moving just when it takes that extra step. I have to remember that it will solve itself. God handles it. But it sadly doesn't stop me from worrying and spending hours and hours switching back and forth. 

Another thing that keeps nagging me is where I should study. Edinburgh or Lund? Lund or Edinburgh? Edinburgh? Lund? I have no fecking clue! You know, I feel really content and happy in both places. It's nice to have that feeling but it also makes the decision so much more harder. I know what my friends here want and I know what my friends in Scotland want. So in that way it doesn't really help, allthough it's nice to know that people like my abnormal personality traits and company.

It will be intresting to see who wins in the end. Lund or Edinburgh?!

(Don't have a picture of Lund yet so it will have to do with one of Edinburgh.) 

Soon I have a big 'fika' with the whole building and then after I'm going over to my cousins and there they have something called a "syjunta". Which is basically a bunch of friends getting together sewing, knitting, crocheing, playing games and chatting. My first time so I hope it's nice. But heard a lot good about it, so I'm not to worried.

NEW YEARS RESOLUTION 2015

When 2015 began I gave myself a New Years resolution. Not one that I'll for sure break, but one that I'll be able to keep. I was going to read as many books as I turned, in age, that year. So I had to read at least 21 books last year. Did I manage to keep it? You bet I did!! And I'm also going to do the same for this year! So this time, I'll have to beat 22. Quite positive I can make it!

Here's my list of books read during 2015:

1. Predikanten - Camilla Läckberg
2. One Million Lovely Letters - Jodi Ann Bickley
3. The Best thing that Never Happened To Me - Laura Tait & Jimmy Rice
4. Summer With My Sister - Lucy Diamond
5. Just One Day - Gayle Forman
6. Me Before You - Jojo Moyes
7. The Rosie Project - Graeme Simsion
8. The Curvy Girls Club - Michele Gorman
9. The Rosie Effect - Graeme Simsion
10. Thursdays In The Park - Hilary Boyd
11. Gone Girl - Gillian Flynn
12. If You Could See Me Now - Cecilia Ahern
13. Making Your Mind Up - Jill Mansell
14. All I Know Now - Carrie Hope Fletcher
15. Where Rainbows End - Cecilia Ahern
16. The Girl You Left Behind - Jojo Moyes
17. Dream A Little Dream - Giovanna Fletcher
18. Eleanor & Park - Rainbow Rowell
19. Outlander - Diana Gabaldon
20. It Started At Sunset Cottage - Bella Osborne
21. Dragonfly In Amber - Diana Gabaldon
22. The Woman Who Stole My Life - Marian Keyes
23. Voyage - Diana Gabaldon
24. Dream A Little Christmas Dream - Giovanna Fletcher 
25. Where She Went - Gayle Forman