SOMETHING NEW

You can now find me here. Not sure why I changed but let's try something new.

SUMMER

Summer is here. It feels good that the weather seems to have finally decided to keep it this way. It's typical Swedish summer weather. Warm during the day and chilly in the evenings. Just enough so by putting on a sweater you'll get warm enough. And the best parts are that everything is green, the smell of fresh cut grass, the sun goes down 10/11-ish and everyone seem much lighter.

Things that have happened and will happen:

• Sleep. I sleep in as often as I can. I know that in a few weeks I won't be able to do that for the rest of the summer. 
• I worked last week at my old intern place. And I'm going to work there Wednesday to Friday this coming week. 
• My host-fam from the States are coming to Sweden in July. So I just email them. Hopefully I will be able to meet up with them! 
• Also I email my host-fam from Scotland. Long time since I talked to them and hopefully I'll be able to go and visit at the end of the summer. 
• I ordered fake Ray Bans from China (so cheap and really(!) good quality) a few weeks ago and they arrived yesterday! Nice surprise and I really like them. 
• My family has now left the country and are on the other side of the world for another five weeks. Hoping they're a blast! I know they are from their updates and hope that they'll keep having fun! 
• In about 9 days I'll finally go home to Småland and enjoy being at home with my sister, boyfriend and the rat (read dog). I'll just take it slow, be in the garden, take a dip in the super cold pool, take strolls in the woods and have the best time. For about one and a half week. 

A few weeks ago my lovely friends and me went to Dalby Stenbrott and this was one of the amazing views! (My friends photo.)

DAGENS

Jag har sedan två veckor idag jobbat min sista jobbdag och känner mig lättad, fri, glad, lycklig och äntligen färdig. Det har varit tre mycket lärorika månader (som allt i livet är såklart) men jag är så glad över att det bara varade i tre månader och att jag nu kan börja på något annat. Slippa känna ångest och stress över att gå upp på morgnarna. Sover för stunden till klockan 9-10 på morgonen. Länge sedan jag kände mig så utvilad.

Denna dagen har det faktiskt varit väldigt varmt och inte så blåsigt så jag har legat ute i solen med tjugo lager solkräm på så jag har inte blivit bränd. Ska nog ut om en stund igen innan jag går och handlar till kvällens kvällsmat. Ska fortsätta läsa i min femte Outlander bok. Börjar komma in i den mer nu. Hinner inte läsa så mycket de nästkommande två dagarna då jag ska hoppa in på mitt gamla jobb. Men börjar först 11 imorgon så får fortfarande en sovmorgon till. Man får ju utnyttja dem nu när man väl har dem.

Ps. Imorgon är det exakt en vecka tills jag åker till Finland och till Anni! Woho!

FEW OF MY BABIES

Jag har nu endast TVÅ jobbdagar kvar på förskolan i Hjärup! Glädjen är total och jag kan knappt vänta tills jag äntligen åker därifrån för sista gången. Några timmar efter att jag slutat så blir vi upphämtade och åker till en destination som är hemlig (än så länge). Det ser jag fram emot så mycket. Då ska det firas att jag äntligen slipper det förbaskade jobbet och min "semester" börjar. 

Jag har under påsken umgåtts mycket med folket som är kvar på Larran. Har sovit mycket, tagit det lugnt, storstädat mitt rum, tvättat, kollat film, hängt i köket, haft pannkaksbrunch, påskknytis x2 och varit i Gråmanstorp på påskmiddag. Så det har hunnits med mycket.

Juste, något mer som har hänt är att jag har tagit bort mig från facebook. Det har legat och grott länge och ända sedan jag skaffade det igen innan USA så har jag varit sugen på att ta bort det igen. Jag hade ju inte det under 3:an på gymnasiet och jag minns det som något jag inte ångrade för fem öre. Så nu tog jag (ursäkta uttrycket) tummen ur röven och tryckte på deleteknappen. Skön känsla. Jag ska ha möjlighet till att använda messenger-appen fortfarande men har inte löst det där ännu. Fixar det eventuellt senare idag. 

(Two more working days! Then I go on vacation to atm "unknown location". So looking forward to it. Over the easter days I have been with friends that are still in town, had brunch, watched movies, done my laundry, super-cleaned my room, hanged in the kitchen and removed my facebook. Especially pleased about the last one!)

 

                           

NERVES

Tomorrow I'm gonna talk to my boss and quit. I already told her that on Monday but she wanted to talk to me, and try to convince me to stay I guess. I have agreed to that, but I won't be convinced. I'm going to quit the place the that makes me so very mad and grumpy, and finally feel happy again! I'm gonna print out the paper, sign it and hand it to her tomorrow at the end of our talk. Then I can finally start counting down the days. It's going to feel so good! I just wish the conversation was over now, because I'm already nervous about talking to her. 

Tomorrow and on Friday will be two looong days at work. But then it will finally be weekend again and we're off (again) for the weekend. This time to northern of Småland to see a friend!

On another matter, tonight Sofia and Jeff is coming over to Simons dorm kitchen and then we are going to watch The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers! So looking forward to it! We will order pizza and watch one of the best movies I know. Can't get better than that! 

A WHOLE YEAR!

(I was supposed to upload this yesterday, but I forgot.)

This day is a day that I haven't been able to envision myself in and it's a day I used to think would not arrive in many years.

When I moved to Sweden/Lund one year and four months ago I could never (!!) have forseen this. Never. In my head and mind I was not there and it definitely did NOT suit my plans for the future. I was just going to live in Lund for 6 months and then move abroad again, this time to Latin America. And then I hoped to get accepted to Uni in Edinburgh, Scotland. But, holy macarony, my plans changed in just a few months. It changed from living in a suitcase to meeting someone that would make me unpack my suitcases and stay in Sweden. Willingly stay. There's times when the urge of moving abroad (especially to Scotland) gets really big, but it's duable and worth staying because Simon is just wonderful. I love him very much and I'll gladly give up living abroad for him, as long as I can travel from time to time instead. Hehe. I still got the travel bug and it's not easy, if not impossible, to get rid of. 

This year has passed so quickly and I'm amazed over how much you can learn about someone in that time, but also how it feels like you've just scratched the surface of a persons personality and what you know about them. I learn new things every day. It's quite amazing. But it also makes me think about how complex a person is and how complex I must be. And I can guarantee that I'm complex since I can't even understand myself from time to time. 

There's been ups and downs over the year but if I put away my summer job, this job and my studies it's been an amazing year with so many new things learned, new friends and roadtrips with Simon. And to be honest, I can't wait for more of it! 

SO MUCH IS GOING ON

There's so much going on in my life right now. But it can all be traced back to work. I can tell you that this place it's not on the top five of my best places. But finally (today) I found out some good news! So now it all feels much more bearable. I think I can actually manage now. It's such a nice feeling! I like my colleagues but the others I don't have that much sympathy for, at least not all of them. But that's a story I won't tell here.

Otherwise I can tell you that last weekend I was up in the northern parts of Sweden watching Vasaloppet. It's a 90 km cross-country competition on skis. It's so cool and there's 15 800 who register. I think this year had around 14 500 that came to the start. I sadly lost my video from the start otherwise I would have shown it. It was so worth roadtripping up there in a car with four energetic and nervous guys! They're so funny together, haha. I had a good time, with lots of driving and cheering on everyone. Would be happy to do it again.

This coming weekend it's time to drive up to Öland again to go to a baptism and a birthday party. Really looking forward to it and to get away from work and things that remind me of work. To just be able to be and not feel any pressure or fall back in thoughts that I should avoid while being off.

To remind myself, and everyone else, of how beautiful Öland is I'll add a picture that my friend took of a magical sunset on Skördefesten.

BACK ON IT

I can announce that I'm done with Malmö University. Feels so good to write it. It's been a while, but anyway. It's a fantastic feeling & I'm not sad at all that I quit. I got a job in Hjärup and I'll be there until may probably. So just enough since I've realised that I don't want to study to be a nursery teacher. I want to study something that is being taken seriously (both work & education) & that I will enjoy. I have a hunch of what I want to do but I'll keep it for myself for a while longer, but I can tell you it includes moving to another city. But since Simon has 5 semesters, including this one, left so it's not something that will happen in the nearest future. But it is nice to have some kind of plan. But the best part is that I don't have to stress about deciding.

The last week I've been missing Scotland so much. Especially Edinburgh. All I want to do is buy myself a ticket & go. Just leave & maybe not come back in a while? That would be very nice. I feel so at home in that city. I can relax & be myself. It's definitely my kind of city.

Now I'm off over to my friend. We're going to have a dubble date and the men are in charge of the cooking. So nice, haha.

CHRISTMAS IS COMING

Last week I applied for a break from my studying in Malmö. So happy about my decision. I'll finish this term though, so I officially end the 13th of Januari. One exam out of four is done for this course. I'm almost finished with the second one exam, the third one we've started and the fourth I can't really start on until we've completely decided what to use on the third exam.

So, now that I don't have any school in the spring I went, yesterday, to a job intervju. And today I signed the papers. Yay! Feels good and I'm excited and nervous to start working in January. But I will only be working during the spring. In the autumn I plan to apply to Kristianstad. I've heard its better there, the program.

What also happened yesterday was that Simon left with his family and friends of the family to Vietnam. They are going to be there over Christmas and New Years. So I'm not seeing him in three weeks. I'm happy for him, ofc, but I also miss him. Can't wait for him to be back so I can hug him really hard so I break his ribs. Not really, but I do wish that the time will fly fast so I can see him. Now we'll have to speak over the phone. I dislike talking on the phone, but at the same time I'm looking forward to it.
As much as I hate being away from each other I think it's a good thing too. It makes me realize how much i care for him and I can feel the butterflies in the pit of my stomach when I think about seeing him again.

Well, that's all for me. I have a headache that won't go away so I'll sleep it of now and tomorrow it's time for Christmas at my aunts place. Can't believe it's Christmas already..

ANOTHER TRY

I tried talking a bit to much my teacher on Friday how I'm feeling about everything. It didn't go as well as I had hoped.. Tomorrow I will give it another shot and depending on how it goes I'm done. I can't take it anymore. I'm bored to death in that school and I can count on two hands what I have learned this term... It shouldn't be like that.. Crap school.

YOU GOT TO BE KIDDING ME RIGHT?!?!

Malmö Högskolas teaching programs sucks. At least now in the beginning. My choice of career I was really happy with in the beginning but now I doubt it. My school is awful and has made me doubt  what I'm doing. Also, the whole program is 3,5 years old and could easily be shorten with a semester (at least..). It's so much dead time just passing by. I have not done anything in three weeks. THREE WEEKS!! And I'm not even behind!! It's some kind of joke right?!?!
And when I've talked to teachers about it they just say that it's just the beginning of högskolan and they're taking it slow, I should be happy that it's easy and that I will get used to it.. BULLSHIT! And some classmates I've talked say it's sooo much to do, and they don't know how to keep up. Then for fudge sake they SHOULD NOT study at högskolan or university at all!!

I seriously can't get my head around this!! I've been trying to understand for three months now and I'm not even remotely close to a solution to this crap then I was my first week!
I studied at Lunds University last semester and it was completely the opposite! So much to do (and I loved it for most of the time), I had fun and was not even remotely bored (except maybe the grammar for a bit). Now? I'M BORED OUT OF MY MIND!! I so much rather have a bit to much to do then too little or more like nothing to do..

I'm gonna try to switch to Kristianstad Högskola instead. I'll have to travel a bit over two hours every day back and forth. But I've heard lots of good things about the school, so I think it will be worth a shot. Fingers crossed!


Last Friday we had to put our boxer, Signe, down.. She's been unwell for quite a while and it feels so weird and sad thinking about her not being around. She only became six years old and is buried next to her favorite stone.

THE DAY WHEN EVERYTHING GOES WRONG

Today has not been the best of days. Everything that should not go wrong has gone wrong. I came to the conclusion earlier today that the best thing I could have done was to stay in bed this morning. Nothing could have gone wrong then and also nothing can go wrong when your in bed under your duvet watching movies/tv-shows all day. My PMS mode swings has/are not helping me either.

Let me tell you one thing that happened today. I was warming my soup in the microwave and when I was going to take it out (I was a bit stressed and my mind was elsewhere) I accidentally tipped the bowl a bit and poured almost all of it over myself. Literally all over myself. The only thing I missed was my hair... But I burned my finger pretty bad, soup was everywhere, my clothes were drenched and I barely had time to eat and change before I had to go. Or I would have missed my lecture. And this was not the worst thing today.. But well, I won't tell you more than that.

I just faced time with one of my best friends that I wish I could see more then I do.. But it's not possible because we live in to different countries. But, after talking to her I feel much better. She made my day! Somehow she made me laugh and think of other things. So grateful to have her in my life! If our lives screws up we have decided that we will move to Spain (or other warm Spanish speaking) country were we will live together. Sounds like a good plan to me!

THE AUTUMN COLD HAS CAUGHT UP ON ME

After walking around the last few weeks with people being sick here and there it has finally caught up with me. My nose is stuffed, my head aching, my throat burns and my body temperature can't settle on just one temperature. BUT I managed to get to school on all days this week. With all days I mean monday-wendsday. I now have nothing until Monday and the paper is handed in today (few days early) and the presentation today went well! The next course doesn't start until Monday. YAY! So now I can finally be sick! Feels good. Not being sick of course but being able to lie in in the morning and lie there all day to just recover.

Oh, on Monday I also went to see the Pope in the arena in Malmö. Simon had got me a ticket (he was way more interested than I was). So now I have seen Pope Francis and this was also the first time that the Pope has ever set his foot in Sweden. Feels quite cool. I didn't even have to go to Italy to see him at the balcony. Instead I looked down on him from where I sat. Haha. It was quite a nice event, and some of the acts in between was really good. Liked especially the Tensta Gospel (from Stockholm) and the Circus act. In the program it also said Samuel Ljungblahd, but he never showed up.. Was a bit disappointed. He probably had to cancel in last minute. Well, I did see him this summer.

Anyways, I think it might be time for some ice-cream to calm down my throat.
Ps. I WANT SNOW! (It snowed in Jönköping last night! My friend send me a few snaps and I'm just a bit jelaous..)

ÖLAND - HARVEST FESTIVAL

(My friend Loc took these pictures)

ÖLAND - HARVEST FESTIVAL

(These photos are not mine, my friend Loc took them.) 

ÖLAND SUMMER OF 2016

SCOTLAND - JUNE 2016

It was so nice being back and just walk around in one of the best citys I know. Edinburgh! 

 

MALMLÖ HÖGSKOLA

It’s been quite some time now. The last few months have been very busy, and when I’ve not been busy I’ve been taking it slow, doing fun things and traveling to recover. It’s not been the best summer in one way, but I’ve learned a lot. But I don’t mind it being over either. Quite happy with being back in school and getting a bit of a regular routine again. 

I’m studying at Malmö Högskola at the moment. To be honest, I’m not completely satisfied with the education here. Or it might be some of the teachers? Anyway, I like it when it’s structure and yes and no answers and you know what you’re supposed to do. Well so far it’s not been a lot of structure, a lot of vague answers or typical ”political” answers (example: ”Do you like bananas? ”I think apples are very tasty.”). It drives me nuts. But I’m gonna give it more time and crossing my fingers that it will be better soon! 

Otherwise, me and Simon have half a year next week. That’s just weird. I don’t understand it. I still can’t get my head around such a thing as time. It makes me feel so small. 

Oh, and also next Saturday is time for another wedding. Looking forward to it. I bought a dress for the occasion, and of course it’s to long. But I handed it in yesterday to get it sowed up. It will be done in next week and it only cost me 325 kr. It might be much, idk, but I thought it was an okay price.

My view to school everyday. My school i on the left.

TIME

Yesterday was five months since i left Scotland. Can't believe it. Today I have two months with Simon. Say what? Tomorrow I have my last exam. Weird! Everything is so weird now a days but at the same time so good. It feels like I just left Scotland and moved to Lund, but as I've lived here for longer at the same time. It feels like I started at uni two months ago, but it's almost five months now. It feels like I became a girlfriend last week, but it was two months ago.
Time is fascinating.

In three weeks, today, I will show Simon my beautiful Scotland. He'll stay over the weekend, but I will stay for a whole week! YES. Looking forward to it.
And in five weeks my wonderful Anni will finally be here with me! It will be crazy and hilarious!
And I'm now invited to three weddings this summer. So much fun!

Went down to see Ales Stenar in Kåseberga last weekend with great company.

VARBERG CASTLE